If you’re in the US, wouldn’t it be crazy if a group of us got together and lived in a place together? Helping each other financially, emotionally, contributing together.. It’s probably crazy.. But for those who have no one, like me, i think its the best thing we could ask for right now.. And im all for it, if anyone else is..
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SP commune!
I’m game.
can i get some basic info? age, some stuff about you? 🙂
Well I’m not legally independent yet. But I will be in a few months. And I’m really clean and I’m good with chores! You won’t even know I’m there. 🙂
email me? devinbelver@yahoo.com
I think it might be illegal is all, for me to try to “kidnap” you or something they would blame me for.
I’m devin by the way. so very shy, anxious.. No friends. Looking for a place to exist that i can cope in.
Well, I honestly don’t care if you’re a potential kidnapper-serial killer. I want to be serial-killed (or just killed) anyway. So long as you’re not a rapist, we’re cool.
Devin is a nice name. My mother almost named me that.
i was just saying, as far as the law is concerned.
I’m guessing you’re a girl then? And no, I’m not a rapist.. I play music, i write, and ill work to help support 🙂
Ah, I see.
Haha, yes, I’m female. Not that I want to be, although if I were a male I’m sure I’d be similarly unhappy. You know what they say about the grass being greener on the other side of the fence.
Oh, cool, another talent comrade to add to the ranks! 🙂 I also write by the way, I just don’t post much of it here.
*talented
alright, you’ll be my writing buddy. can i ask though.. why do you want to leave your life behind?
Like, die, or like, move into the hypothetical SP commune?
umm, both? And it’s not hypothetical, it’ll happen!!
You’re graduations school in may or so, right?
Yup. Though I probably won’t be able to go anywhere for a while after that, because of commitments at a community college. :-/
how long is that? Semester type thing?
I like your idea and fully support it. I personally would want to contribute to this. I unfortunately don’t live in the US 🙁
Can’t wait to see any other opinions (hopefully positive)
-Suicide
it can work if you have passport
Or there could be chapters outside the US. 🙂
Not only a passport also a green card.
Just found out money also helps 😛
very true. Its hard work though, i know. i tried moving country..
I wanna move countries but my depression and social anxiety is a real ***** and stands in my way.
Seeing how fucked I am.. I would be up for this idea if I was in the US. It would probably help a lot actually.
passport!
Oh it takes more than a passport to get me into the states. I would require to pay a lot of money and try to obtain a visum with the American embassy.. Because I am supposedly a criminal.
Let’s go on a boat.
.. wat
Yes. You heard it correctly.
Now, we could set sail from Portugal. Or Norway. Or Iceland/Greenland to Canada. Or..cross Russia, take a boat to Alaska. Or..buy a trip to Mejicoooo. You don’t need visa for Mejicooo. From there it’s easy. We live or die but the adventure is worth it. You know what? If i die i want to die like that, with a purpose. I don’t want to die here in any case. I don’t want the priest and the people from the nearby church to put their filthy hands on my body and say “oh he was that crazy guy who used to attend church”.
if you’re willing to pay for a boat, by all means.
Yes. And if i am not willing?
i just dont see how we could survive all that well.. with little money and a boat, which is cool, we can fish, but we still need money for supplies. Maybe im not understanding what you’re saying. You want to live carelessly in a boat traveling wherever right? I love that idea, i do, but i feel like we don’t have the money to pull off somethign like that
True..we don’t have the money. That sucks.
i would if i lived there but I’m too poor to go lol
arent you in the states?
No I’m in Australia
too many australians ugh i wish i lived there!
I know that feeling haha.
Australia is a toilet, well well don’t mind me I’m just wanting to die… I know there are worse countries, nvm, i don’t care where the people are just only that they are kind generally speaking
ask around about people in aussie wanting to get together? Sadly, the country boundaries are kind of crazy.
Haha, nah I’d rather everyone on SP gather up. Apparently it used to be a supercontinent called Panagea
i don’t know about that. we could try stuff like that though. even if its a large online chatroom even. this can become more of a community than just a blog.
I’m boring as heck so i think I’ll just go chirp chirp. *shrug* but it would be nice
sure. what country would you want to move to, if you don’t like australia?
Wow… loved the idea. Pity I’m in Brazil but certainly I’d visit you and we could drink some “caipirinhas” and have some fun.
Caipirinhas:
Pinga (alcohol from sugar cane)
Sugar (from sugar cane)
Green lemons
Take one and life becomes full of fun \o/
i dont think its as hard to get to the states as it is to get to “over the seas” countries.. But i know its probably not worth it. I don’t drink by the way, but thanks for the handout 🙂
You are welcome!!! Let’s have a coke then?
oh gosh, i dont drink soda either! Juice, tea, water…
I really want one of those drinks now
im definately down
we got two 😀
email me too? devinbelver@yahoo.com
do you have skype sportsnuts and whiskered fish? Or kik?
e-mail.. bigticketman33 @ gmail .com
Interesting idea. Each geographical region of the world would have a S.P. get together. The ironic part of this get together is that in sharing our suicidal thoughts and pains–we actually help each other NOT suicide!!
just like on here, but it’ll be more physical, and personal. And since its just the few of us in one place, we can really get to know eachother. You in lovedogs?
You said exactly what i was thinking!!! \0/
Sounds awesome but my hubby might mot apove lol
he comes too? and if theres 2 of you, prehaps you wont need financial assistance in a large group.. Can i hear your situation?
Well im kinda homless my husband dosent want to go home to prove to my family he his own my by running to his family so on april 5 I am going to lake tahoe and I honstly might kill my self there . my finances is shit right now manly because im in FL there is no money here .
have you considered leaving him? You can join us, if you would like. We’ll give eachother a reason to live.
If we met in December yes i would have joined yous in a heart beat. But i come to terms of my lonly lifeless life .
maybe this is another chance for you.. Don’t give up, try one last thing? I amost gave up too.. My gf left me and all. i have no one. I want to start a new life. i think it would be nice, if you came.
I’m not in the states yet, but I’m hoping to be within the next few months… I’m just unsure.. While I do trust you guys, I haven’t done well with rooming with others, not even family… It’s just I don’t have many options for places to go…
I’m quiet, take up little space. I’m hardly even existence. im not sure about whiskered fish though.. do you have an approximate date your coming here? and were you coming here without a plan or place to stay?
Idk, trying to think of something but honestly, options wise, I don’t have too many.
well, we’ll be here. so far, there’s only 3 of us that seem to want to do it. 4 i think is perfect. My email is around here. you dont have to send me one, but if you want to get a hold of me, you know how to.
I’m game, if there’s handicap parking and medical care.
And a piece of blueberry pie sounds good right now too.
can i ask about your situation? How old are you? Why are you o medicare?
Health issues:
1. Equinovarus deformity of foot/ankle, which was never fixed during childhood, and has left me with serious mobility issues now that I am in my 40’s. I have to wear leg braces to walk. Also require canes or walker/wheelchair.
2. Migraines: average of four per month.
3. Sleep apnea: I stop breathing when I sleep, and have to wear a special mask that pushes air into my lungs.
4. Depression (of course).
5. They found an unexplained mass during an x-ray of my head awhile back and I have an MRI on March 31 to see if it is a brain tumor, or some other kind of tumor.
thats all so awful. let me know what they find. I’m a bit empty on transportation right now.. It might be a while before we can get a car, and help you get places. I’d have to get back to you on that though, im not sure if anyone else has transportation.
That’s ok.
In the meantime, I’ll just keep visiting the site to see what the rest of you are up to.
if we start making a high income, we’ll let you know. you’ll fit in just fine with us.
I also have sleep apnea.. I have severe nasal allergies. Had adenoid surgery in 2005, and they managed to grow back (huge adenoids)… That shit scares me honestly. 🙁
how bad is it? How does having that affect your life?
do you have something to help with your breathing? I own an inhalator. never before used. but im sure you’d have one if needed
Generally the treatment for sleep apnea is called a C-PAP mask.
C-PAP stands for “Continuous Positive Airway Pressure”.
The mask is connected to a machine that is able to sense when a person has stopped breathing, and it responds by pushing air more forcefully into the person’s lungs.
Mine is variable; if I still don’t start breathing after a mild push, the machine keeps pushing more and more until it’s finally able to force me to breathe.
oh.. That seems like a handful to deal with..
What an interesting idea!
considering it greenz? Where are you at in the world?
If this works out it be Awesome and Id wake up one day turn on the news (A group of people calling them selfs sp community is thriving and happy )
i’d like if you were there. If life is too much and comes to suicide, shoot me an email? devinbelver@yahoo.com meeting with us can be your last resort.
I’m new here, but I’m definitely in, that sounds great
Hello Hailee.. I’d love for you to join.. Really. But sportsnuts pointed out that you’re underage, and it’s just a bit illegal :/ You could get emancipated at 16 i believe, but it’s a stretch to do that. Your profile pic thing looks like a space ship by the way 😀 You seem like a really nice person
Ah, the sp shire. Every is nice and dandy. And then sauron attacks in the form of depression. I wonder who’ll carry the ring to mordor. Heck, i wonder what the ring is, and where is mordor in this particular version.
The ring could be each one of us. and mordor could be the place we’re all moving to. I’m not saying this will cure us or anything, because it surely wont. But we will be surrounded by understanding people, and each can pull our weight on paying for only 1 rent.
Heh, i was just sort of joking but yeah, i guess that analogy would be the right one. As many of the other members i have to say i find the idea to be a good one, but i’m not in the us. I do hope that if it’s doable you guys are able to pull it off tho!
its hard to know what to expect. Meeting people here could go horribly wrong in itself. You all seem so lovely though, and i don’t feel like im too judging of others.
“One does not simply walk into Mordor…”
😮
thats why we’re all taking a plane!!
Very interesting idea. I’d take living with you guys any time, because I know I won’t have to fake. Pity I’m not in the US.
where are you in the world? I saw an australian person on here before, and 1 brazilian. you can talk to them, if you live there.
I’m in south africa. Can’t make it to the US unfortunately for the SP commune, which is a great idea. 🙁
Start your own? Residents of African SP commune! I’m sure there’s a few on here.
I think there are only 4 South Africans here. One I’m afraid may not be with us anymore. I don’t know of any other Africans. It would have been really nice.
theres lots of people who probably never spoke about where they live. you never know.
hey ylem
Im in the us i cant say im not intrigued idk of im capable of it though.
*starts chanting* “one of us, one of us”… 😛
Whats your situation like deadmanliving? age? State? It would be nice to have another maybe come along.
28 working an awful job in the Carolinas a year ago i would’ve said yeah now I’m hoping to do something with my little sister.
Aww. Go for it. If it doesn’t work out, let us know 🙂
i might have to go in a minute. My email is open though, if anyone wants to reach me. devinbelver@yahoo.com
Hey Devin!! 😀
ugh who invited you?!?! You called me mad when i wrote this post!
😉 that’s cuz you are