Good Morning whiskered, sorry you are in this state again. Anything I can paint to make it better? I’m working on ballet dancers today but might need a pallet cleanser.
Which is what makes me a morning person. I wake up each morning and it is a total crap shoot what the day will be like. today for instance, I have a white hot pin between my eyes and someone wound me up tight. But that is okay because I’m fairly certain this is the worst it will be today as long as I channel this into something appropriate. Which absolutely is not drawing insanity and madness. Channeling it into ballet dancers and bird drawings and perhaps some pool time this afternoon seems to be the order of the day.
The other path, the path of mayhem I shut the door on last weekend. I can see the madness through the cracks of the door. It is red with some purple and a touch of green, but the door is staying shut. I will throw my arms out and fall into the warmth of ballet and birds. Maybe some cacti.
That’s true whiskered….so true. I am trying to find another way. Can’t find any yet.
@Hazy Day sunflower for me reality is the every pain I’m going through and the anxiety for my uncertain future.
whiskered-fish, good morning, i just woke up! yes sleep is a natural temporary cure i love sleeping, and i hate waking up! 5 days a week i wake up then it’s off to work i go, i’m very good at what i do but i’m so fucking tired of it, i’ve done this same routeen for decades, i really could careless i’m tired but that is what pays the bills, buys the vodka! the coffee! the cat food! still not a fair exchange, but! i wake up Saturday and Sunday early! just so i can get on the computer and say hello, i love waking up on these days! that’s when i’m happy to be awake 🙂 my goal is to retire and wake up and enjoy life and follow my dreams like that for what ever time i’ll have left.
That’s a pretty nice goal, in my book. I wish retirement was a lot earlier, though!
My grandfather will be retiring soon, and let me tell you, he earned it, 100%. Hardest working man I’ve ever met in my entire life. I wish he could have done so a lot sooner, though. His work has taken quite a toll on his health.
Hey Whiskered-fish. Yeah I understand where you are coming from. I often love to sleep because I get to forget about me and my daily problems and just be away from reality for a while. I usually have pretty cool dreams at night and that makes it even better. But just like you> when I wake up the shit stats again. I have to face my painful life and it starts all over again.
that is the reason I struggle with suicidal thoughts because I want to enter into that sleep forever
I hate sleep but it is the only time where I have no “bad” thoughts at all. If life consisted of my best friend talking to me ALL day long then falling asleep, I would be the happiest person alive! However a trip to the hardware store never seems to elude my thoughts.
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Good Morning whiskered, sorry you are in this state again. Anything I can paint to make it better? I’m working on ballet dancers today but might need a pallet cleanser.
Thanks Hazy. I can’t really think of anything, though. There are a lot of birds outside my window right now. Can you paint me a bird?
Wow that would be a challenge, but the lightness of feathers and flight appeals to me today. Yes.
Awesome, I can’t wait to see it. 🙂
It was my pleasure.
Maybe that’s true. We don’t know what future has planned for us.
Which is what makes me a morning person. I wake up each morning and it is a total crap shoot what the day will be like. today for instance, I have a white hot pin between my eyes and someone wound me up tight. But that is okay because I’m fairly certain this is the worst it will be today as long as I channel this into something appropriate. Which absolutely is not drawing insanity and madness. Channeling it into ballet dancers and bird drawings and perhaps some pool time this afternoon seems to be the order of the day.
The other path, the path of mayhem I shut the door on last weekend. I can see the madness through the cracks of the door. It is red with some purple and a touch of green, but the door is staying shut. I will throw my arms out and fall into the warmth of ballet and birds. Maybe some cacti.
Good morning whiskered. It’s nice when our mind takes a break from all.
Good morning, gkks.
Yes, it is. But that makes the return to reality all the more difficult.
Unfortunately we can’t escape reality. It would be so great if we could.
We can if we die.
@Gkks: depends on your definition of reality.
That’s true whiskered….so true. I am trying to find another way. Can’t find any yet.
@Hazy Day sunflower for me reality is the every pain I’m going through and the anxiety for my uncertain future.
It wouldn’t be a fully defined future if anything were certain.
whiskered-fish, good morning, i just woke up! yes sleep is a natural temporary cure i love sleeping, and i hate waking up! 5 days a week i wake up then it’s off to work i go, i’m very good at what i do but i’m so fucking tired of it, i’ve done this same routeen for decades, i really could careless i’m tired but that is what pays the bills, buys the vodka! the coffee! the cat food! still not a fair exchange, but! i wake up Saturday and Sunday early! just so i can get on the computer and say hello, i love waking up on these days! that’s when i’m happy to be awake 🙂 my goal is to retire and wake up and enjoy life and follow my dreams like that for what ever time i’ll have left.
That’s a pretty nice goal, in my book. I wish retirement was a lot earlier, though!
My grandfather will be retiring soon, and let me tell you, he earned it, 100%. Hardest working man I’ve ever met in my entire life. I wish he could have done so a lot sooner, though. His work has taken quite a toll on his health.
Hey Whiskered-fish. Yeah I understand where you are coming from. I often love to sleep because I get to forget about me and my daily problems and just be away from reality for a while. I usually have pretty cool dreams at night and that makes it even better. But just like you> when I wake up the shit stats again. I have to face my painful life and it starts all over again.
that is the reason I struggle with suicidal thoughts because I want to enter into that sleep forever
I hope that things get better for you.
I really couldn’t have said it better, PhantomCitizen. I hope things get better for you, too.
All of us!
PhantomCitizen43, you will get you wish sooner or later, but try to enjoy what ever you can while you can.
As soon as I wake up I can’t wait for the day to be over so I can feel that bliss of tiredness just before I fall asleep. What a way to live.
nuclearbackpack, That’s actually the way to live 🙂 that’s why we sleep in the first place.
Mornings can be bad. They are especially rough with melancholia.
I hate sleep but it is the only time where I have no “bad” thoughts at all. If life consisted of my best friend talking to me ALL day long then falling asleep, I would be the happiest person alive! However a trip to the hardware store never seems to elude my thoughts.