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Fuck me why do I do this to myself

by Sui the Bunny

It’s fucking 7:11am in the NZ here I am woken up looking after my brother’s kids have to fucking do all the shit he would if he was here

  1. Feed them cereal
  2. Make my nephew’s lunch
  3. Get them dressed into their superhero costumes
  4. Have their bags by the door
  5. The whole time I’m doing this make sure they don’t cause World War 3 or argue over a stupid felt/marker because they are currently colouring in, in their books.
  6. Also make sure my niece doesn’t press the button on her Elsa dress that plays the whole song of let it go because I might be prone to pull my hair out….

I’m such a ***** in the mornings my nephew tripped on his bottle and I was like “have a nice trip?” I feel like clawing my eyes out. The fucking mother does nothing because she gets what she wants… Not my fault my brother is whipped *whip noise* every Tuesday, Thursday and second weekend he comes over to the unit to annoy the fuck out of me and make me feel pity for him because he wants to get back with his abusive wife who has cheated on him -.- FFS he’s a fucking idiot also he fucking involves me in his fucking drama it’s like fuck off I don’t want to deal with it I got my own shit to deal with don’t need your shit added on, on top of it. So he fucking leaves at 5am leaves me to deal with this shit as usual. *flips table* he’s the one who had kids either the condom broke or he wasn’t wearing one either way he is the father he should take more responsibility of his kids I find it ironic and quite hilarious that he calls me a looney/crazy person let he leaves his kids with me hmmmm?  Fucked up logic much? I also have to watch my step nephew this weekend and he is a absolute spoilt snot who needs a slap or two but he’s never been hit before. Why put up with this shit you may ask?  To simply put it I’m scared of my brother especially since hes quit drugs he is also quitting smoking and he is unbeatable one wrong thing said and he is like a ticking time bomb who has gone off *explosion noise*

Someone kill me please 🙁

I’m done with life


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mato42 4/12/2016 - 4:04 pm

It’s 22:00 in here (EU)! You are practically on the opposite side of this planet. This site is trully global and international.

Neither I really like taking care of my younger cousin because I never knew what to do with him. He didn’t like the food I made, he didn’t like our old toys, but at least he loved our old VHS, so I could always seat him in front of TV and he wouldn’t make any trouble. I don’t even want to imagine if I had to take care of several kids at once.

And your brother sounds quite selfish and self centered.

Sui the Bunny 4/12/2016 - 4:09 pm

Someone agrees with me! Hallelujah *rains cookies* *hugs* yay I thought I was being selfish posting this tbh

mato42 4/12/2016 - 4:24 pm

I barely lost 10kg of weight with 10 more to go, so no cookies for me :/ but damn I haven’t really been hugged in several years *wholeheartedly accepts the hug*

You are not selfish. It’s not selfish to be pissed about having to take responsibilites of others against your own will, especially if they are not just ungrateful but even abusive towards you. I know the kids are just being kids, but you are not their parent yet you take care of them instead of their parent. You are allowed to infuriated about it.

mato42 4/12/2016 - 4:25 pm

*to be infuriated

Sui the Bunny 4/12/2016 - 4:33 pm

:3 you just made my whole morning better :3

mato42 4/12/2016 - 4:51 pm

Glad to help 🙂

Sui the Bunny 4/12/2016 - 5:56 pm

*hugs* hehe feeling slightly better now I’m getting weird looks because I’m smiling irl

dividebyzero 4/12/2016 - 5:08 pm

No, you’re not being selfish, at least I don’t think so. Those kids are not your responsibility. Personally if I was in your situation I would be just as pissed off if not more so, since I cannot stand little kids. Your brother is the one being negligent here.

I do have to ask, though, why are you and your brother living in the same house/apartment? Can you just leave?

Sui the Bunny 4/12/2016 - 5:53 pm

Well I lived (before I got put in the looney bin) with my mom then later on my bro got kicked out of his flat so he had to move in with me and my mom he recently had a fight with my mom so he comes over to my unit or sometimes stay over at his wifes sometimes he leaves his kids with me and expects it to be ok because I never answer him back I know how much our mom is a psycho so I allow him to stay over.

Sui the Bunny 4/12/2016 - 5:54 pm

Normally I just hide in the shared lounge till hes gone the staff think my paranoia has kicked in though so they just carry on like it happens all the time….

nepheliad 4/12/2016 - 6:20 pm

If you’re living in a psychiatric institution, wouldn’t the staff have an issue with you looking after children? Are you over 18?

Sui the Bunny 4/12/2016 - 7:27 pm

Yeah I’m 19 lol yeah I’m in a private psychiatric hospital so it’s different from the normal one there is. So they don’t mind the kids being there or my brother they think having family around is supposed to make me feel better and not looney and suicidal -.-

rocketman 4/12/2016 - 7:07 pm

Sui the Bunny, i hate that shit myself, but think of it this way you could in their shoes and really be screwed.

Sui the Bunny 4/12/2016 - 7:27 pm

That’s one way of looking at it

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