I’ve been away from sp bc I was staying with family to help my mom who was here (NY) from Florida. I got home yesterday and I haven’t moved from my couch since except for the bathroom. I haven’t showered, eaten, unpacked my bags or done anything. I’m starving but I don’t care. I don’t even have the will to get up and eat. I see no point to doing a damn thing. I wonder how long it would take for me to starve to death. Probably too long. I’m just lying here staring at the wall. I feel paralyzed by hopelessness. How does one snap out of such a state? Has any one ever felt this way? I wish I could get up and be normal.
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i have been in this state.
Death by starvation can take years. Do drink fluids thought, death by dehydration is excruciating. When I get in this kind of catatonic state I force myself to do things. Even if it is just sitting in the shower washing the sweat and Dorito crumbs off me.
I agree with Hazy that forcing myself to do something – anything – is the way that usually works. I understand how you feel. I find it easier to fight against a known threat than to fight against the empty nothingness of apathy.
Thanks guys. I needed to hear that. I took your advice. I stopped being a wus and went out to do some errands. Since HDS says it takes a long time to starve to death I will refrain from eating. Maybe fasting is better than unrelenting anxiety.
I actually used to enjoy fasting for a few days when I was younger. I can’t do it any longer due to health issues but it can clear the mind when done the right way.