If my parents ever divorced I wouldn’t be able to choose which one I’d live with. So from my previous post not long ago this memory came to me. My dad and I were in the parking lot at a restaurant about to go inside when my mom called in. I don’t remember what they talked about but when my dad hung up he was pissed. He asked me if I would want to go on a trip with him, England exactly, just him and me. I didn’t say anything. I didn’t know why he was saying it. But it hurt. Did he want to leave my mom? I feel like he doesn’t trust my mom anymore, I catch him always looking through her phone. Emails, messages, deleted things etc. It just hurts to think that he doesn’t trust her or if they divorced. I’m not close with my mom, we argue a lot and she hurts me emotionally a lot. and I don’t think I could trust my dad enough if I had to live with him. I hate these thoughts. I want them to go away. I wish I knew what to do about them. Or maybe even have some courage to ask my parents for some counselor or therapist. I’ll never do it, I know it. Anyways just wanted to share one of my dark thoughts.