I have been the happiest I’ve been in years these past few months. I’ve been feeling confident and beautiful but today all my depression flooded back. I know it’s going to be bad again. I’m not going to be able to get out of bed again. I have a beautiful 5 month old Husky. He is my best friend in the world and I love him so much. He doesn’t really care for me though haha but I don’t mind because I love him so much. But I know I’m not going to provide him with the care he needs anymore. I knows this hole I’m in right now is going to consume me for a while and he deserves better than having to stay in his crate until 1 pm because I slept through all of my alarms. I’m going to have to give him up. It breaks my heart because he’s all I have. I don’t have a human best friend and my mom does her best to pretend to like spending time with me and like me in general but I know she doesn’t. And it’s okay because I understand. But basically I’m going to have to endure months of isolation and sadness just like last summer.(I went out with friends a total of 3 times the whole summer) I’m going to miss my baby so much by I know he’ll be better off without me.
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I know how that feels all too well to be alone. I’ve thought about getting pets myself but… yeah, they need a happy owner. I hope you can get back on your feet, hun… It’s hard, I’ve tried too, and tonight I broke back down… but maybe we can get back up. Find our vigor again.
You just made me a little sad. I love dogs. I wish I had three or four of them. Why don’t you give him to a friend temporarily until you get back on your feet again? Or to someone who can bring him over to you sometimes? I assume you won’t be able to visit him wherever he is.
I have a dog. She’s an adorable little tycoon I’ve spoiled worse than any affluenza. I love her with all my heart and soul, would spend my entire savings on her. But I’ve realized how much I’ve affected her; she sleeps around a lot, typically wanders about, and I rarely ever play with her. She’s the family dog and that’s the only reason why I haven’t sent her off to be with a cheery family with kids that’ll play with her everyday (she’s a low energy dog but nonetheless my depression has affected her). She loves and depends on me since no one else in our house stays with her as much as I do.
I guess the point I’m trying to make is; you’re not going to be a perfect pet owner but if you show your dog you love him (give him treats, or teach him tricks or rub his belly) then he’ll give you unconditional love. I feel bad about my dog but she’s improved my life just a tad (just as your dog has done). It’s your choice in the end but give yourself a chance to be loved. Hope I helped a bit 🙂 have a blessed day, friend.