Riddle me this: Why does my father think my mother is too blame for my insanity or the fact my brother can’t find a job? He says the reason “we don’t do anything is because our mother babied us too much” and that caused me to become apathetic how exactly? He is the one that thinks beating us would’ve helped… Normally, a mother’s gentleness should’ve translated to me wanting to help others. Instead, I want to watch them burn.
I can’t even fake “normalcy” anymore. I can’t even force myself to give the illusion that I care about my studies. I’m done with pretending. It’s time to knock the dominoes over and I don’t think my brief moment of consciousness is enough to stop me this time… Life really does sound like a terrible, awful, bad joke, doesn’t it?
Changing the subject, would anyone be interested in playing an online version of Cards Against Humanity with me or as a group? I’m bored.
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Fights like that are common in a family (i think so). We had a few over the years. Our father blaming our mother for our mistakes and the other way around. I think you shouldn’t pay attention to such things. The funny thing is we were pretty normal kids. I screwed up on the way but i don’t blame anyone but me.
I’m sorry but i don’t know that game…
Well, my father did consider voting for Trump until Trump revealed how batshit insane he really is. I have no problem saying I think my father an idiot for even considering voting for Trump. If depression and mental illness can be considered “normal” than sure, my family is normal… Fuck genes and biology!
To be honest, I’m already past the point of absolute nihilism. I only lived a quarter of a century and I think that is long enough. Dealing with fickle humanity is way too exhausting for me. Hell, even typing this comment is draining and I don’t even mind talking to everyone on here…
Depression and mental illness is not normal. Fights in a family is also not normal but is quite common unfortunately. I am not from the States but I know Trump is a jerk. I hope he won’t become your president.
My parents are Trump supporting bigots as well. Just knowing I’m related to these kind of beings make me want to kill myself (bad joke, I know).
If I was on 5 hours ago, I would totally play!
I’m waiting to see if more people are interested in playing.
How do you play it?
Zetsumei,
As if i don’t cause enough trouble, i love you Zetsumei, listen you asked, first off your parrents have a problem child he name is Zetsumei, now because Zetsumei is different and fucking up, out of the two parents, somebody has to take blame, if your mother protected you from your father who wanted to beat the tar out of you and set you straight but couldn’t because of her, he is going to rub salt in the wound SEE I TOLD YOU! And visa versa, i could already tell you if i was dad i would have been tough on you and because your evil i would probably been killed, however i’m not one of those sit back and let you kill me type so i would dispose of you one way or another, don’t you just love me? you see i would never put up with any shit, but obliviously that’s not what happened, this is like part 2, on the other hand nobody is at fault because your in control of being a good Zetsumei or a bad Zetsumei, it’s all your fault. you choose dark over light. Zetsumei everyone comes to though cross roads while growing up me included, some of us make the wrong choice. Sorry my buddy , but it’s never to late to cross over to the light. will it fix everything? NO! But if your lucky and go to the light your life could be much better, no guarantees. you know me i tell you what i think because i’m trying to help you not hurt you.
Zetsumei, I’M A FUCK UP TOO! Not better than you just a fuck up! 🙂
I’m tired of this duality, Rocky… In this world of winners and losers, it seems only the dark ones march toward progress. The light ones who take the high road may live longer but they can’t advance the eras.
Maybe I just don’t want to see the next era since I know there is no “happily ever after” for our species. Can you really blame me for wanting to exit the theater when the ending was already spoiled for me? I know it is a pet peeve of mine but I dislike watching or experiencing things I already know the ending to. Besides Rocky, do you really think I give a damn when I’m 100% sure I would watch you die if I could.
Zetsumei,
Nothing wrong with watching me die 🙂 i’d make you proud, i’m not a baby! “happily ever after” for our species.” why are you thinking about that? ISN’T ONCE ENOUGH!! Zetsumei The idea is as long as your here, try to enjoy it, and since your here with others try to let them enjoy it, being miserable isn’t any way to live. i know the whole story and i know how it ends, back to nothingness.