Every 6 months I have a breakdown. Too much stress to handle. I have been six months free, but now something triggered me to cut.
I have a strong feeling my dad is cheating on my mom, and she feels the same way, even tho she doesnt tell me
My dad can’t even take his eyes off other women to talk to me. He is the reason why I am scared of weddings, and the reason why I can’t trust any guy I know.
I am feeling like the stress has been piling up for many months and the fact that my dad is an asshole just made things worse. I need to relax, but my brain is so fucked up that the only type of relaxation I know is cutting my skin
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I’m sorry to hear that you cut yourself…. 6 months is pre good, good job with that…. Please don’t feel bad about breaking that streak, all that does is make things worse…. Sucks that you can’t trust your father and other males 🙁
Thank you, I couldn’t cut myself today, I tried but I just couldn’t, Idk if that is good. But thanks for taking your time to reply, maybe someday I will trust a guy.
Well hey, you made it farther than I did. I envy that 6 months, and at least your reason for falling off was understandable; I literally broke my streak because I felt bad for triggering a false fire alarm and bringing a fire truck to my house. Everyone falls down. Just try to get back up again. Habits like this take quite a bit of time and effort to break. I’m sorry about your family. Excuse me if I cross a line here but your father sounds like a complete asshole.
Don’t worry I have social anxiety and I would do the same thing because of the fire alarm. But shit happens, that is okay. Thank you, I hope we can all get back up again. Haha you didn’t cross the line at all, believe me, thanks for taking you time to reply, and take care!