I woke up early today, been up for a while. I can’t stand the feeling of being not loved, wanted nor needed any longer. I can’t take another day of it.
I woke up early too, and feel sooo tired coz of it! I may also be a little sick, from taking care of a sick friend. But I’ve been taking mucinex all weekend to get rid of it before I end up fully sick. Sometimes it really hits me hard when I realize that no matter how old I could end up if I lived out my natural life, that I’ll always be alone and I’ll never know what it’s like to be loved or to be married. No one could ever want me and I hate being useless, worthless, unwanted and undeserving. 🙁 sigh.
I’ve experienced not being lonely for a long time, always was surrounded by good people, if you’re feeling any way I am, most likely worse, I don’t know how you do it…I can’t stand it…I’m not much support right now, I can’t stand myself nor my life anymore.
I go through the same thing every day, so I understand where you are coming from. I think it’s important to know how to love yourself rather before you involve other people. I know it may seem difficult to see, but you can work through this. Also what about yourself do you feel makes you undesirable? And why do you feel unloved?
Thank you…I used to have all of the confidence in the world, was actually quite successful…it’s all gone and so are the people. I was always the one that told people I love you and I meant it, I wore my heart on my sleeve. Those that lingered, were horrendous to me, those that stuck by me, are true but I’ve probably worn them out. I hate those feelings and I can’t deal with them anymore. My GF tells me she loves me, but she doesn’t stop and listen and if she does, I don’t put her down, I don’t attack her, I just tell her how I feel and she gets angry with me, I’m not up for it no more. She has no clue I’m even on here, I’m not about to tell her neither, I don’t discuss these feelings with her. I can barely hold my head up, I sit here and fall asleep typing. My body and mind can’t take it much longer.
I see, I can understand how tired you are of being lonely and caring so much. It’s very easy to get hurt. The people that have stuck around have done that for a reason, because they haven’t given up on you! Yes, it does get to intense, maybe distancing yourself from those feelings might be best for a while so you can mentally recover. I’m glad that you did try to tell your gf, maybe just telling her what you want out of telling her would help? Maybe a hug or just listening and understanding, because she might be getting angry because she doesn’t know what you want out of her by telling her, just ask her to stop for a second. Show her that it makes you upset that she gets angry as well. If you cannot discuss your feelings with her, then at least continue to express yourself on here. It helps a lot. Don’t give up, I have faith in you, you can do it
Thank you for your understanding. It is hard, it’s like the emotional roller coaster doesn’t stop. Yesterday was an okay day. I think she’s at her wits end with me and now I’m dealing with her putting her phone face down, it’s on silence all the time, I don’t look at the phone records because it leaves me to wonder. She may be totally innocent, she claims and reassures me nothing is going on but with the distance and the phone thing, now when ever she goes out, I don’t hear from her like I used to. There was a time when we didn’t do anything without the other. Even if there isn’t an extra relationship going on, she’s distanced herself enough that I believe I am holding her back from life itself. We have 3 little ones, I love so much our family, she motivates and makes us rock and roll, it’s all gone now. I’ve tried to discuss my feelings with her, she gets upset with me, I don’t know if she just doesn’t understand or if she just don’t care, the look on her beautiful face is that she doesn’t care. Today I’m going right back into the epitome of depression.
Yes, I know what you mean. It’s good that you cherish your family, and I think the main thing to do with your partner is to not think that she’s done something wrong until there’s proof that she has done it. The reason why she might be distancing herself a bit, is because she might feel like she’s being subconsciously evaluated all the time. So just calm down and have faith, there really could be nothing wrong at all! Maybe ask her how she’s doing? It might put you at ease a little bit
I know exactly how you feel, I am going through the same feelings myself. Are you forced to deal with all of your situations on your own like me? And left to fend for yourself with no one there for moral support ?
Thank you…I used to have all of the confidence in the world, was actually quite successful…it’s all gone and so are the people. Those that lingered, were horrendous to me, those that stuck by me, are true but I’ve probably worn them out.
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I woke up early too, and feel sooo tired coz of it! I may also be a little sick, from taking care of a sick friend. But I’ve been taking mucinex all weekend to get rid of it before I end up fully sick. Sometimes it really hits me hard when I realize that no matter how old I could end up if I lived out my natural life, that I’ll always be alone and I’ll never know what it’s like to be loved or to be married. No one could ever want me and I hate being useless, worthless, unwanted and undeserving. 🙁 sigh.
I’ve experienced not being lonely for a long time, always was surrounded by good people, if you’re feeling any way I am, most likely worse, I don’t know how you do it…I can’t stand it…I’m not much support right now, I can’t stand myself nor my life anymore.
I go through the same thing every day, so I understand where you are coming from. I think it’s important to know how to love yourself rather before you involve other people. I know it may seem difficult to see, but you can work through this. Also what about yourself do you feel makes you undesirable? And why do you feel unloved?
Thank you…I used to have all of the confidence in the world, was actually quite successful…it’s all gone and so are the people. I was always the one that told people I love you and I meant it, I wore my heart on my sleeve. Those that lingered, were horrendous to me, those that stuck by me, are true but I’ve probably worn them out. I hate those feelings and I can’t deal with them anymore. My GF tells me she loves me, but she doesn’t stop and listen and if she does, I don’t put her down, I don’t attack her, I just tell her how I feel and she gets angry with me, I’m not up for it no more. She has no clue I’m even on here, I’m not about to tell her neither, I don’t discuss these feelings with her. I can barely hold my head up, I sit here and fall asleep typing. My body and mind can’t take it much longer.
I see, I can understand how tired you are of being lonely and caring so much. It’s very easy to get hurt. The people that have stuck around have done that for a reason, because they haven’t given up on you! Yes, it does get to intense, maybe distancing yourself from those feelings might be best for a while so you can mentally recover. I’m glad that you did try to tell your gf, maybe just telling her what you want out of telling her would help? Maybe a hug or just listening and understanding, because she might be getting angry because she doesn’t know what you want out of her by telling her, just ask her to stop for a second. Show her that it makes you upset that she gets angry as well. If you cannot discuss your feelings with her, then at least continue to express yourself on here. It helps a lot. Don’t give up, I have faith in you, you can do it
Thank you for your understanding. It is hard, it’s like the emotional roller coaster doesn’t stop. Yesterday was an okay day. I think she’s at her wits end with me and now I’m dealing with her putting her phone face down, it’s on silence all the time, I don’t look at the phone records because it leaves me to wonder. She may be totally innocent, she claims and reassures me nothing is going on but with the distance and the phone thing, now when ever she goes out, I don’t hear from her like I used to. There was a time when we didn’t do anything without the other. Even if there isn’t an extra relationship going on, she’s distanced herself enough that I believe I am holding her back from life itself. We have 3 little ones, I love so much our family, she motivates and makes us rock and roll, it’s all gone now. I’ve tried to discuss my feelings with her, she gets upset with me, I don’t know if she just doesn’t understand or if she just don’t care, the look on her beautiful face is that she doesn’t care. Today I’m going right back into the epitome of depression.
Yes, I know what you mean. It’s good that you cherish your family, and I think the main thing to do with your partner is to not think that she’s done something wrong until there’s proof that she has done it. The reason why she might be distancing herself a bit, is because she might feel like she’s being subconsciously evaluated all the time. So just calm down and have faith, there really could be nothing wrong at all! Maybe ask her how she’s doing? It might put you at ease a little bit
I know exactly how you feel, I am going through the same feelings myself. Are you forced to deal with all of your situations on your own like me? And left to fend for yourself with no one there for moral support ?
Yes, that is it…the loneliness has consumed me to a breaking point. I’ve never been so lonely.
Thank you…I used to have all of the confidence in the world, was actually quite successful…it’s all gone and so are the people. Those that lingered, were horrendous to me, those that stuck by me, are true but I’ve probably worn them out.