This morning I woke feeling life was okay, 5 minutes after getting up, I felt just like I did the day before, as the day went on, I felt awful, this evening, even worse. I just don’t understand…my sadness is beginning to overwhelm me, I can’t even discuss my feelings anymore, express my emotions, It’s like I’m going into isolation mode, anything I say or feelings I express are of no importance anymore, am I going crazy? My existence is becoming worthless. Despite the untruths and their so called “smear campaigns” am I really the horrible person they are making me out to be? I love my immediate family, even they are talking to me less and less every day. I will only be a burden or heartache to them eventually. I used to make people happy, I don’t anymore. My time is drawing nigh. I am sorry, world.
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Who do you think is saying that you are a horrible person? do they say that to you or do you just think that they think that way about you? You dont sound like a horrible person. From what you write here you sound pretty clear headed about things. I know about sadness. Sadness can creep in and get pretty thick sometimes in life. DO you think that you know why you are sad? Like are there specific things about your life that make you sad.. or are you just sad with life in general.
It would be good if you could pin pint what exactly is making you sad > so you can begin to work on those issues. its nice to see you posting.
hang in there.
My marriage fell apart last year which lead to divorce. My ex wife was very abusive and blamed her behavior on adult add. Daily I would hear how she hated me, what a fat b I was, etc. She returned to our home state and turned things around accusing me of being abusive and the things my family and old friends have been touting about me are not true and painful, especially on social media. My current girlfriend has become distant, after her there is no one…i used to be responsible for over 300 employees, my family, myself, now, there’s no one. Loneliness and sadness are all that remains. I don’t know what else to do nor where to turn. I can’t function, I can’t get the end off my mind.