I tried to stick around, no matter what I do, it’s not the right thing

I’m tired, I will keep this short…I have tried to get through this, no matter what I do, it is getting more and more difficult! Friday, my gf tells me she doesn’t know if she’s in love with me – my perception of her behaviors for the last 2 months and then hearing that, she’s done with me. I’ve already alienated my family back home, their mouths cause me that much more heartache. My girlfriend, gave me all of my driver, my ambition, my desire to succeed and it’s all gone now. I am starting to feel the courage that I need to just get out of the whole mess that we call life. Perhaps I am responsible for my own circumstances, there are changes that I cannot accept nor will they be easy to deal with a top of everything else. I’ve failed my best friend, she deserves the best, I am not. Here I sit realizing it’s okay – the storm may pass, but the scars will always exist, I can’t do it any more.