I can’t face the fact that I’ve driven away my best friend, my family has all estranged me over lies and smeared me in the worst way… Life has caught up to me, staring me in tge face, I give up. I can’t function, my nerves make me shake continually, my best friend has distanced herself from me, she gave me everything I needed to keep going, now my ambition is gone, my desire to live is gone. I guess this is it, it’s time to take my last break. I’ve come to the conclusion, IT’S OKAY, it’s okay.
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I sympathize with you, the loneliness, the nervous tremors compounding an already difficult situation. Your decision, It really IS okay.
And today is worse, for no other reason other than loneliness and the lack of love.
I understand you completely, I’m feeling abandoned as well, try to take this time to enjoy yourself. All people do is leave anyway, everyone is so temporary these days ! Maybe if you build a stronger relationship with yourself, it won’t matter who your friend is. You can say fuck everyone because you know that inside, you’re not the problem.. It’s the people who don’t know how to treat you, or what to say to you, if she estranged herself from you for no reason, she was never your friend
She has good reason unfortunately I had to leave state for a month, I wasn’t sure what was going to happen and she was a hurting unit during that time, although months ago, those feelings resurface and she is grappling with them. I have regrets that are running deep…Fuck the rest of the clowns that did me the way they did, unfortunately they were my family. I lost my died 39 years on the 17th, they all have made me realize why he left the way he did, one can only handle so much! I appreciate the feedback and I’ll try, my regret is so deep seeded.
I too am feeling abandoned by my family. I’m just trying to love myself more. I spend a lot of time with myself getting to know me again. I started reading self help books because they give me a sense of hope.
That is a good thing. I’ve read a lot of books like that in the past. I’m really at a point where I can’t accept that I can’t “unring the bell” and I have to deal with the consequences of it. I haven’t done anything criminal, I’ve been wronged by my family who I didn’t do anything to and the one I’ve wronged, she just can’t seem to get over it and move forward. She used to give me a desire to live and succeed, now it’s all gone. She seems to be in a depressed state as well and anytime I try to comfort her, she’s even more distant with me. She and I truly gave definition to “Best Friends” now she can do without me…all because of me.