They are all lying to you. They told me it gets better. Don’t believe them. They said that they aren’t judging me. They said that I should come out from behind my mask. They said I hate myself. They lie.
I know it doesn’t get better. I’m never going to be accepted by them. They told me to get rid of my mask. They wouldn’t know what to do if I took it off. I do not struggle with self confidence issues. They just believe that anyone who isn’t the perfect picture in the magazine does. They told me that I can trust them.
They said they would help me get better. All they did was shatter me into more pieces than ever before.
They said that I was lying.
They are the only people I know. They are my family and friends. They let me tell them, then used my words to cut me deeper. They are the people that have bullied, abused, hurt me. They are the reason my physical self has tried to kill herself for so many years. They are the reason the real me is dead. They killed me. No excuses for them anymore. They are the reason I cry myself to sleep. They are the reason I am invisible. They are the reason I scream at walls. They are the reason I have insomnia. They are the reason I haven’t felt truly happy for many years.
They don’t get me. They don’t give a fuck about me. They are the reason I am scared, tired… of everything
I am an emotional, physical, mental wreck. They are the reason why. I am done with them. They had too many chances, and I never should have trusted them.
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I’m sorry that they lied to you.
I’m sorry that I believed them so long.
*hugs* I hope that things start treating you better
Thanks, I just found this website a couple days ago, and it’s so amazing to see how strangers encourage each other because of their similarities – we all accepted death’s dangerous game
oh welcome ^_^ I hope you enjoy your stay…. and yeah I love that about this site too.