Im not gonna kill myself but I’ve always had it on my mind. My family is a mess! My mom is working for the 5 of us, my dad’s a drug addict/alcoholic, my brother has mental issues. I hate the people at my school (mainly the girls) because i get picked on for being quiet. I have no friends. During lunch i just go in the bathrooms. Life just isn’t good right now. I’ve been imagining what life for others would be like without me. But I just cant kill myself because I love my family especially my mom. There has been times where I cried myself to sleep. Me as a person, I am just confused. I have self-esteem issues, I get very shy, and I feel like i’m not beautiful enough. Nobody knows this about me. I feel like one day if i get pushed around enough that i might actually kill myself. but idk. Sometimes i feel empty and alone. I try my best to keep my head up high but sometimes it just isn’t enough.
Can anyone give advice as to what i should do?
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I think you should talk to someone about your thoughts. It will help you a little. My advice is to try to get stronger for you and your family. It’s not easy but at least try it. You have people who need you.
I’m sorry about your family situation. One piece of advice that I can give you is not to worry too much about school. Study hard and get good grades, but don’t worry about the social bullshit too much. School is a very small part of one’s life, and life after school is almost always better.
If you want your Dad to quit being an addict, get him to take Ibogaine. It is an addiction breaker and Ive seen it work.
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