https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7s-s8ZPCNQ
Hey guys been a while, im still alive!! although getting intense dreams where I choke and can’t breath..
did you guys see finding dory?
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I was starting to wonder where you went -_-
nope I haven’t seen finding dory, yet. :/
I kind of relate to dory 😛 see it, its super emotional
Welcome back Mad-eye. Glad to hear that you’re still alive.
Thank you potatoe kun. Likewise!
Im trying, although I must say its like the most difficult month.
It’s good to hear that you’re trying, just power through this shitty month. We all get bad spots sometimes.
yeah I’m also happy that you’re still around ^_^
I plan to watch finding dory eventually…. Not in theaters though, those are too expensive for my taste…. Why would I pay to be around a large group of people that I don’t know to watch a movie? O.o I’m going to watch it at home when nobody else is around 😀
So what’s you up to today?
Im also happy that your around. nice I think watching it alone is better, but the theatres is good for the 3d aspect
3d sucks for me…. I wear glasses -_-
ah, I wear glasses as well.
no where here has any form of 3d viewing device that allows for glasses…. which sucks…. as then it’s just sort of watching a blury movie that looks like it has depth a little bit :/
i just put it on top of my glasses!! unless your glasses are super big.
No their’s are just too small and my nose is short -_-
ah i see.. 😛 thats cute, my nose is also small but has a big scar from a stitch
My nose is also very steep, so very little of it can be utilized for the mounting of optical devices…. So what’s the stitch from if you don’t mind me asking? I have a very faint scar on the bottom of my chin from where I split it open while swimming -_-
oh its from when i was a kid. i got bullied, fell from a bus then hit the same spot again as i was walking on the edge of the couch and jumped down cause i thought i was superman or something and hit my nose head on the coffee table. got it stitched up couple of times..
Wait your bullies threw you out of a bus? O.o That’s quite intense…. I never physically got bullied, mine only existed verbally and socially. Only ever had one incident of physical bullying and it ended with me determining that I have a slight anger problem…. -_-
LOL children things ^_^ it seems a lot of children hurt themselves on coffee tables….
yeah.. i got bullied hardcore :/
not only that but i guess because i was quiet and less talkative (ie: less manly) and they were extremely racist towards my identity. they hit my head into the sink i still remember that vividly…..
That’s sad 🙁
I was fortunate enough to not have to go to the larger high school in my area, won the lottery to be able to go to a much smaller one…. So I only had to deal with bullying at school in elementary and middle. Which is nice 😀 I probably would have been physically broken had I gone to high school. -_-
i didnt get bullied in high school, just in middle and primary. in high school i kept to myself and smoked weed ..
That’s not very nice of them at all 🙁
yeah i know.. are you in high school now shatter san??
oh wow, your middle school must have been pre rough then…. -_-
Then again mine was too, but I didn’t get physically attacked mostly because everybody actually thought I was crazy after I strangled somebody for throwing food at me (4 times, I gave him 3 verbal warnings, which he didn’t take seriously since I am not very intimidating)
I just sort of assumed that would not work too well in high school since there would be people hitting like 300+ lbs when I was 110-120 lbs -_-
nope I’m in college now…. Graduated from high school almost 3 years ago now, I miss it…. 68 graduated in my class, I knew them all quite well.
and I like how our comments are entwining now ^_^
right now im feeling friendless.
looking for forests to do the deed on google maps.
Listening to music, and trying to think of something to say as my mind is usually blank xD
A blank mind sounds strange and alien to me…. My mind is filled with way too much, it doesn’t slow down…. -_- It does sometimes make changing my focus a bit hard…. Or focusing in the first place :/
And I sort of hope you don’t find a forest close enough for you…. I hope the only nice forest is too far away to be convenient for you to walk too, and you live for ever 😛 becoming an immortal…. Then you can start tearing the heads off of other immortals, then you’ll have a large collection of hand puppets. You can then start hosting puppet shows for children, where you meet another child’s puppeteer and become best friends with them. ^_^
i feel like people who have too much on their mind are actually better off in terms of conversations and being able to multitask.
Me too the forest im thinking of doing it in is pretty far, but i am capable to doing whatever i set my mind to. this depression has hit me since i was a child, it really is like an alien force destroying my existence one micro second after another.
I am not at all good at multitasking…. Like I generally have constant passive thoughts running threw my mind, about random things just so very often…. But generally once I start doing something I latch onto it pre hard mentally and everything else just sorts of goes away, until I fall out of that state…. For me when I’m being productive I normally fall into a trance-like state, is weird….
And I’m not great at conversation, sure I have a lot of potential things to say, but some of them sort of drive people away….
That sucks 🙁 But I guess at least we match 😀 (*sigh* 🙁 ) I’ve hated myself for as long as I remember…. Most of my memory starts at around 5 or 6 -_-
yeah.. im not good at conversation either.. things like pain and loneliness, people simply wont talk about or even express consciously..theres very few people that do at least
yeah and apparently adding “unless we die” to the end of “see you tomorrow” isn’t acceptable either :/
http://www.southmarchhighlands.ca/
this is the forest im thinking of doing it in. its just outside the city. and its one of the biggest. 54 hectares
Okay it looks like a proper forest…. like there trees and everything ^_^
I tried reading some of their site, but got bored…. I just wanted to see pictures they didn’t has many on their site…. Really bad idea for a forestry site if you ask me -_-
i know!! lol its more of a conservation effort site to maintain it since the city wants to clear it away for fregin houses!! god damn it.. heres a proper image, these pine trees are not good for holding down but when i went hiking there a couple of weeks ago i saw bigger ones with sturdy branches.
That’s sort of sad that the city wants to tear it down…. But I can sort of understand the city wanting houses too…. There is a good chance I would want to do the same thing if I had the power to order that houses get built :/ I would probably remove everything and build houses just because I could…. Also the streets would all be in perfect grids with equally sized blocks all with the same houses…. It would be perfect ^_^ we’d flatten all the land, so there are no abnormalities in the terrain…. I should manage a city….
it is eh, well they wouldn’t be able to tear down the entire patch of forest because some of it is protected by the conservation authority. There are plenty of houses around it. Eitherway, i wouldn’t want it to be cleared just yet since its going to be my dying ground.
:/ yeah I can understand why they should stay up…. just saying I would definitely want to tear them down as to not ruin my perfectly flat city and to cram in more people…. But I doubt the city is run by any one person so it makes no sense anymore as nobody should be that attached to the city. -_-
What’s up mad-eye? Glad to see you’re still here.
nothing really.. thank you empty pluto. your a very kind person.
I don’t think i commented to any of your posts before, but i had to say: great taste in music, hah. Haven’t seen dory (not planning on seeing it soon, wish i had the time), glad you’re still alive!