Why does the future seem so bleak

It’s been awhile since I last felt the need to come here and post. I guess that’s a good thing. Life has just been so stressful lately that I just can’t ignore it anymore and now here I am. I’m a sophomore in high school and we only just finished our first grading period, but they’re already making us sign up for our junior year classes because of how many kids we have or some crap. It’s just got me thinking about the future too much. I certainly don’t really like my current situation and would do anything just to take some charge in my life, but at the same time I can’t say I really look forward to the future anymore. I’ve had people tell me these are the best years of my life, the worst years of my life, that nothing changes, and everything in between. Ever since freshmen year kicked off I’ve basically lost all my ambitions for “success” and started questioning what I really want out of life. Can I basically just be a kid with a job who lives by himself? Right now that’s about all I want. I just don’t see the appeal in “growing up” anymore than I have but want complete control over my own life. No more expectations to meet, no more dealing with other people’s problems and having them try to deal with mine. Just me looking after me. Go to work because I need the money, come home to a small house or apartment, do what little chores I need to, then just be like a kid just release for the rest of the day. Listen to music, play games with my friends, watch anime and movies. If someone else decided to stumble into my life and they actually wanted to be a part of it then hey, may as well roll with it. I’m just sick of feeling like I have something I need to fulfill. Like I have some responsibility that needs attending just as a result of me living. Screw that I’m never changing. Not now, not ever. Just wish life didn’t try to make me change