I’ve always had a problem maintaining social relationships, mainly because of my general dislike of people, socializing, and being unable to get along with most types of people. I’m usually afraid of bothering people unless they talk to me first, or people find me annoying even if I had never personally talked to them in the first place. I wonder what’s so bad about me? Is it because I’m loud? Is it because looking at me makes people hate me?
I don’t like me either.
I don’t know if I’m violating the rules for posting with my rambling here, but the fact that I barely have any friends doesn’t really help my self esteem. No one needs to tell me that there’s so many people here who are depressed and suicidal, that much is obvious.
In a way I’d like to make some friends and also help people, I guess. I’m not great with advice but I’m an open-minded person and I consider myself an alright supportive friend. Is anyone there reading this who needs to talk or is looking for a friend? I’ll be leaving for work soon and I don’t check this site frequently but I’ll try to get back to you.
Or I might just be rambling, idk. Christmas time is a lonely time.
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So do you have any family or pets that you know and love?
Family? Yeah, I have them. Do I love them? No. As for pets, I’ve never really had one either, nor do I believe I would be capable of taking care of one properly when I can’t even take care of myself.
Hello sugar perfume .. Sucks right ..Ya feel like shit , No one knows what your talking about .. No one listens and after a while no on seems to care .. At last you have a job and some friends .. My friends are all gone as I pushed them all away . I’m so socially anxious I don’t leave the house .(only for food or Dr’s visits) Money is running out and I can’t see any future for myself .. If you want to talk some times no drama .. I could use the support sometimes I guess . Though suicide is always in the back of my mind .. I could use a friend sometimes ..
Hi, mellowmoods.
I’m sorry to hear that. I guess on the bright side having a job is nice, but as I hate any sort of interaction with people and my job heavily requires me to do that, it’s quite an emotional strain on me.
I can sympathize with you with your feelings. I’ve gone through similar things and I’d be free to listen to your troubles in detail if you wanted to get them off your chest to an actual human being instead of posting into the void and such.
I know how feel. I’m always that person that ends up alone and i generally don’t like many people. then people complain about rot and make me feel absolutely awful. it sucks.
Thankyou Sugar Perfume .. I’m lost for words right now ..