There are certain people in this world, I am noticing more and more. There are people who hardly feel music or people who feel it so much, they can hardly breathe! I feel emotions a lot. Things have happened in my house I will not go into, but this is the only question I ask: WHAT IS HOLDING YOU BEHIND THOSE FOUR WALLS???
You know those walls. The exact same ones I am enclosed in and don’t have an excuse not to go beyond anymore. These walls are closing in. It is time for a change.
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it is safe inside these walls
here, up high in my castle, I can look down upon all the land,
up here in my castle I am safe
even though the plebs are massing and gathering with torches at the gate
but here, behind my castle walls, I am safe.
How could I not be,
after all, I build these walls myself…
I’m the only thing holding me back. My fear keeps me caged up, but I hold the key.
What do you want to change exactly? Your location or more?
My fear keeps me here too. Another thing is being too tired and depressed to change my situation. I must change it though because I can’t stay in a toxic household with people who are easily manipulated by a certain family member in here. It is retarded!
Yesterday was just awful. I couldn’t turn anything in my head into a positive. Something happened in my house that made me realize I am in a bad situation and I need to get out. Yes, I want to change my location. I really need to get out of this house and never look back. There are too many stupid people around me who shouldn’t have reproduced.
I understand having to combat depression and exhaustion, sometimes the first step seems to be so far out of reach– that’s why I procrastinate. I’m with you though, I need to work on making things better for myself (they won’t get better from me avoiding everything)
Where do you want to go? What do you want to do?
I hope you are “ok” despite yesterday being awful.