I’ve put up with these painful esophageal spasms for some time. Cannot eat or drink without painful spasms, chest pain and aspiration. Been to specialists but no one has any idea what to do.
Secondly, been homeless for a year now, living in hotels, friends and my car. I’m 56 and really a battle with everyday life. Tried intimacy the other day and that didn’t work. Had been abstinate for nearly 4 years and what a let down for both of us.
I have my ‘exit bag’ ready always available in my car. Going to a different hospital today and if no answers will end this miserable creation God made. I don’t belong in this world. Can’t even father kids. Messed up life. Be dead in a few months or years anyway.
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I really hope that someone somewhere can figure out what is wrong and can help you so that you can get back on your feet. You’re trying your best right now and I just hope you keep going. You’ve had it really tough and I think you’re such a brave person for sticking it out with these issues going on.
I understand a bit of where you are at. I’m 57 and homeless, but my health is excellent and I could probably couch surf on my friends until I turn 65.
I know that feeling. Why wait? I’ve had a reasonable life, might as well end it. 60 can’t possibly be better. I was ready to exit in the summer of 2015. Then suddenly my entire family died. I grieved a long time, but after I came out if it I decided to live just to spite whatever dieties had handed me this shit life.
Homeless shelters usually have handouts that list resources for people in distressed economic situations.
It is possible to come back from the hole you are in. I hope you try.
If not, peace be with you.