Fascinated

Nope, I don’t think you should go out with style. I think that the point in life is to learn and experience as much as possible. Who knows, maybe what you learn here carries on the the afterlife and leaves you wiser and whatnot. Ehem… I suppose that that’s neither here nor there however.
I understand how it is to be with someone who makes you feel like life is worth living, someone who gives you hope… someone who acts as a sort of light in the darkness… and then to lose that person. It’s tough. I nearly killed myself because of it. Months went by, I thought that my heart would always feel like it were either bleeding or on fire. It was agony. I feel a lot better now. Part of what helped me improve was coming here and venting. Meeting some like minded depressed people online who I could be open and honest with (for the most part) about my problems.
It’s not healthy to rely on someone else to make you feel like life is worth living. It’s something that we have to find within ourselves. By all means let people support you. But I don’t think one should rely entirely upon others.
Anyway. Those are just my thoughts on the matter.