I’ve been in this choir for three years, since I came as a freshman. Every year, I have auditioned for solos and parts but I keep getting put on the backburner- if that. I’m so tired of trying and just getting rejection. I’ve been praised by so many people, but those in charge have such a blatant favoritism that it’s almost sickening. Honestly, I’m frustrated, but it’s becoming more and more involved than that. My self-worth and self-esteem is suffering because of this. I’ve tried telling myself that it doesn’t matter, but I find myself hurting worse. I feel like the longer I stay in this choir, the more I suffer. I’ve had friends to tell me to leave, but I seem to refuse to. I just stay, even though I know I am not happy. I suppose I just want to finally be recognized, as if this will make it better. I feel like giving up. I don’t know. I just can’t handle this anymore. The roller coaster emotions are killing me and no one seems to want to help.