Considering my medical diagnosis and having lost my family due to it and nothing can be done to fix it, I am wondering how and why it is so hard to want to go ahead and put my lifes end in my hands and make it easy to accomplish the ultimate goal?
I have tried to get depressed first, then to be happy and I am wondering if I can come to peace with it if that might help.
What a crappy hand I have been dealt here.
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Sorry to hear about ya diagnosis man, really sorry.
It’s still a very hard thing to do though, our brains are wired for survival even if it’s just for another day or a week. It’s a real struggle to beat it.
Thanks Woody, at least I am somewhat content that it should be fast and relatively painless unless I really goof it up. Losing everything is just a deep pain that I cannot handle anymore. When you lose the love of your life and then are told you will be losing your mind you sort of wonder what the point is of things anymore.
I know the feeling, I lost the love of my life and now I want to join him in the next life. I have tried to end it and survival instincts kick in. Trying to find a way to trick my body, maybe helium or ********, body can’t tell that it isn’t oxygen. So many ways, but it’s so hard to end it. i am committed to it though.
I am with you lilxtina. I lost mine through divorce due to a medical condition that I did not know was capable of doing that. So now I have lost her and I cannot go on without her. I am not sure if I mentioned my method but I have a pistol and I am just hoping that making myself comfortable with the fact of what I am going to do will help me carry it out. Good Luck to you too.