Seems it will end tonight. I have hurt enough people and myself to the point where I do not need to do this to anyone else.
I cannot continue to live with this pain. I am lucky I have booze and a weapon so this should be relatively painless.
If I do not post after today I hope to see some of you on the other side.
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If you do it like this and right next to your daughters birthday, it’s going to overshadow them for the rest of her life and she’ll probably be hard pressed to enjoy any of them. i suggest you reconsider your date.
How did you know my daughters birthday was yesterday?
A few posts ago you said something like at the end of the week after her birthday. didn’t know it was yesterday but yeah.
I love you
How sweet or was that meant for freeroma?
Her birthday was yesterday and she and I talked and she is happy. I hope this will not blend in but I cannot handle this anymore.
Have a peaceful journey 🙂
hey missing, maybe ur not ready to leave yet, & postponing the date may be a good thing. you never know when you might get to spend a sunday with ur daughter/s, or even just talk on the phone.
either way all the best.
I have been talking to them and they know how bad things will get with me and I guess I could try and see how long I can last or how long I can enjoy things before they get better but eventually it will get bad and I am hoping it is not during a critical moment in their life when they need my advice the most. If that makes any sense.
Plus I am able to go out the way I want too and how I want too. I have talked with the ex and she knows what has happened if she gets the email messages sent to her. She is not happy but at least she does understand.
Thanks freeroma I forgot. LOL
If you are being honest and doing this because of your kids then at least wait until there 18 then u have a chance of having a great relationship with them once they can tell there mom to fuckoff