I just got back from sneaking out with a neighbor. We went to the park and laid down on the basketball court and stared at the stars and in that moment for once I felt alive. There were no rules and no pressure to do anything. No mental illnesses and no mistakes it was just me and her and the stars. Every breath I took felt wanted and it felt pure nothing could ruin that moment and nothing ever will. I broke the rules in the most purest way there is, I laughed but not to hard and I smiled but not to much. I felt alive so so so alive. I love that feeling and its addicting.
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In that moment, free from the constraints of rules, society, jobs, school, whatever, in those moments you ARE alive. It’s the shit structure of “civilization” and it’s bullshit protocols that choke the life out of us. Do the stars care about our rules? Do the stars give a rats ass about Republican and Democrat and inflation and unemployment and crime and bad parking and mass shootings and and and etc etc etc?
Not one bit.
Congratulations on finding “alive”, as short lived as it might be.
Break the rules every chance you get and when it’s with her, even better.
Sorry if I misinterpreted “her” – just reread and saw she’s your neighbor, maybe not girlfriend, but STILL. Glad you got this chance.
im a girl and shes my bestfriend lol anyway yea I felt great for once no bullshit
Duhhh, sorry! 🙂
This post is really resonating with me. You’ve made me stop to think. Thanks for sharing this, I really enjoyed it.
welcome dood.
“Guilt and death were enforced and called normal; I had to break the rules to be innocent and feel truly alive.”