I feel so sad

I know I’m going….I know it’s going to hurt people. I don’t want to leave my family but I can’t live like this. I wish things were different, I wish I was different. I dropped my daughter at her dad’s house and knew that was the last time I’d see her. That hurt.  I don’t want to hurt her or anyone, but they deserve better. And I can’t do that. I’m a terrible person.  And that makes me feel even worse.