Generalwow by mranony 4/27/2017 written by mranony 4/27/2017wowowowI’m so toxic in a relationshipWhy am I ruining something so great?I’m so fucking stupid and shitty.Why can’t I make someone happy?I’m so unreliable hahaha FuckI'm stupidtoxic 3 comments 0EmailRelated postsEven here people are dicks 8/10/2020There really is no light at the end... 8/10/2020I beg God………. Nothing 8/10/2020It gets worse 8/9/2020The Buick 8/9/2020Self Harm Reasons 8/9/2020 8/9/2020Ramblings of a madman 8/9/2020Protected: Something 8/9/2020I don’t feel okay right now… 8/8/20203 comments freeroma 4/27/2017 - 1:14 pmHey 🙂 i think making an effort counts for something. And it takes two, things arent just on you. Why do you feel toxic? Log in to Reply mranony 4/29/2017 - 6:13 am@freeroma Well, mostly because I’m almost always cranky and sensitive. And I lash it on him. He understands but it still doesn’t change the fact that I hurt him. I always manage to hurt him and make him feel guilty. It makes me feel like an abuser. I’m abusing the privileges he entrusted on me.We’re compromising but some days, bad days make me irrational and I always regret it.He always forgive me but I know I have to learn how to control it. I’m always the one who starts every fight. He trusts me so much and so do I. And with this honesty, I opened my real self to him. The irrational person that I am. And I’m hella toxic when I’m irrational.Thanks as always for your concern, freeroma. I hope you’ve been well enough to open your curtains 🙂 Log in to Reply freeroma 5/2/2017 - 1:12 amHave patience with yourself, as he surely does with you. That trust is something special. I still dont have a tight rein on my irrationality (and yes i relate too well to that) but i agree its for the better to be tamed. I remember a desire of yours to learn how to cook.. Ive found beating up dough for bread can release frustration without involving others. As for me.. I opened up enough to gain a new friend, and im still mixed about it. Life isnt all bitter, at least. .. Be well anony, as ever. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribeAllReplies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.