honey
u talk as if there’s a universal rule governing this universe
saying that
“Mehikka will forever be that “Type of Girl” ”
it’s not true
“That” can & wil happen if we try together
You know what…
even if I go along with what you say
& assume that there’s such a rule
that “Mehikka will always be sad & in pain”
I say we go to war with that rule
we fight it back with everything we’ve got
& even if we fail
no matter for how long
[& I’m confident we won’t]
then at least we tried our best
we can take pride in that
u’ll be sad & in pain…
but u’ll be proud that you’re fighting back
[& I know you think you won’t feel proud,
I want you to give it a try…
start & maintain fighting for some time
& see for yourself…]
I’m willing to accept that I could be wrong
that [as you probably think now] everything I say is nonsense & useless
I’m asking you to give it a try
& like me, be willing to accept that
maybe
just maybe
your position / understanding / view
is the wrong one
we can never know for a fact unless you start this battle…
I’m offering to fight with you
to protect you up front
stand by your side
& to cover your back
but you’r in command
you’r the only one who can say
“let the battle begin”
on who’s authority do you make such a claim?
even You don’t have the athority, capacity or power to make such a claim
simply becuase You can’t “know” the future
can you “guess” / “expect” it?
yeah, sure you can
so can anyone
that includes me
but who is to say that the guess or expectation of any one of us
is un-negotiabl-y true?
For God’s sake Mehikka we only need to “try”
you won’t lose “anything”
If you claim to be already at rock bottom
& that this is already a lost battle
what worse could possibly happen?
if we fight back & still lose
it won’t be a shock for you
or “news”
You already see it as the current case
we’d only be back from where we started…
[1]
Mehikka
I think
by now
you know that I care…
more than you think I do
& I also think you know
that your little sister “cares” very very much
Can you even imagine the effect it would have on her, for the entirety of her coming life?
I must ask you here,
do U care if she gets hurt like that?
You asked before “who would look for me, “other than my parents””
why would you assume your parents would look for you
unless because “your heart knows for a fact” that they care about you very very much
So please, whenever you get that illogical question in ur head
“who cares if I…?”
Please “Answer It By Yourself”
say to whomever it is inside you that is asking that illogical question…
”
My Sister Cares
My Parents Care
& Some Weird Persistent Stranger called Farah Cares
”
Nothing can prevent you from saying that answer
Shout it out
Say it out loud
Whisper it
Write it down
At the very least, say it in your head… make it echo
like as if you’r making “an internal announcement” with a megaphone
[2]
yes, we can’t travel back in time
that’s, unfortunately, physically impossible
& so that sentence is true
but “traveling back in time” is not
“the only way”
to fix things that have already happened
I agree with you
some things that happen
can not be changed or fixed
once they’ve happened
this is something that we are forced to accept about life
& about living
there has to be loss
& there has to be regrets here & there
but not “everything” is like that
some things, actually many things, can happen
& still be fixed
at least relatively [to a certain degree]
after they have already happened
this is why I’m asking you to tell me
what are those things that happened?
what is it that is troubling you?
because one of the major things I’m trying to do here is help you see for yourself
which category do these things fall into…
are they all unfixable?
can I live & move on with what can’t be fixed?
& if there’s somethin fixable [& I have this feeling, we will find many of these]
how can I fix it? & to what degree?
where can I start?
I want to try to introduce these questions to you
but I can’t do it
if you don’t show me where the problems are…
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it’s okay Mehikka,
with time,
the scars can heal & gradually disappear
you just need to do ur best to throw the blades far far away…
& then, I pray that, with time
the smile would be from your heart
That won’t happen
I’m a toy
but with only a broken
heart </3
honey
u talk as if there’s a universal rule governing this universe
saying that
“Mehikka will forever be that “Type of Girl” ”
it’s not true
“That” can & wil happen if we try together
You know what…
even if I go along with what you say
& assume that there’s such a rule
that “Mehikka will always be sad & in pain”
I say we go to war with that rule
we fight it back with everything we’ve got
& even if we fail
no matter for how long
[& I’m confident we won’t]
then at least we tried our best
we can take pride in that
u’ll be sad & in pain…
but u’ll be proud that you’re fighting back
[& I know you think you won’t feel proud,
I want you to give it a try…
start & maintain fighting for some time
& see for yourself…]
I’m willing to accept that I could be wrong
that [as you probably think now] everything I say is nonsense & useless
I’m asking you to give it a try
& like me, be willing to accept that
maybe
just maybe
your position / understanding / view
is the wrong one
we can never know for a fact unless you start this battle…
I’m offering to fight with you
to protect you up front
stand by your side
& to cover your back
but you’r in command
you’r the only one who can say
“let the battle begin”
This world isn’t my place. I’m just a waste of space.
I might as well tie the rope around my neck and stand on that chair.
still you say this
after all what i wrote 🙁
on who’s authority do you make such a claim?
even You don’t have the athority, capacity or power to make such a claim
simply becuase You can’t “know” the future
can you “guess” / “expect” it?
yeah, sure you can
so can anyone
that includes me
but who is to say that the guess or expectation of any one of us
is un-negotiabl-y true?
For God’s sake Mehikka we only need to “try”
you won’t lose “anything”
If you claim to be already at rock bottom
& that this is already a lost battle
what worse could possibly happen?
if we fight back & still lose
it won’t be a shock for you
or “news”
You already see it as the current case
we’d only be back from where we started…
We can’t travel back in time.
To fix anything that’s already happened.
So who cares if I do get up on that chair and tie that rope around my neck?
[1]
Mehikka
I think
by now
you know that I care…
more than you think I do
& I also think you know
that your little sister “cares” very very much
Can you even imagine the effect it would have on her, for the entirety of her coming life?
I must ask you here,
do U care if she gets hurt like that?
You asked before “who would look for me, “other than my parents””
why would you assume your parents would look for you
unless because “your heart knows for a fact” that they care about you very very much
So please, whenever you get that illogical question in ur head
“who cares if I…?”
Please “Answer It By Yourself”
say to whomever it is inside you that is asking that illogical question…
”
My Sister Cares
My Parents Care
& Some Weird Persistent Stranger called Farah Cares
”
Nothing can prevent you from saying that answer
Shout it out
Say it out loud
Whisper it
Write it down
At the very least, say it in your head… make it echo
like as if you’r making “an internal announcement” with a megaphone
[2]
yes, we can’t travel back in time
that’s, unfortunately, physically impossible
& so that sentence is true
but “traveling back in time” is not
“the only way”
to fix things that have already happened
I agree with you
some things that happen
can not be changed or fixed
once they’ve happened
this is something that we are forced to accept about life
& about living
there has to be loss
& there has to be regrets here & there
but not “everything” is like that
some things, actually many things, can happen
& still be fixed
at least relatively [to a certain degree]
after they have already happened
this is why I’m asking you to tell me
what are those things that happened?
what is it that is troubling you?
because one of the major things I’m trying to do here is help you see for yourself
which category do these things fall into…
are they all unfixable?
can I live & move on with what can’t be fixed?
& if there’s somethin fixable [& I have this feeling, we will find many of these]
how can I fix it? & to what degree?
where can I start?
I want to try to introduce these questions to you
but I can’t do it
if you don’t show me where the problems are…