Sometime’s I look around at where I am and I wonder, “What am I doing here? What is the point of being here and doing these things?”. I can’t make up my mind about anything. I’m a senior in high school now and I’m passionate about so many things, I can’t decide on just one thing. I absolutely love cooking, but I know the pay isn’t very good. I like the idea of helping others, so I thought maybe I can become a nurse or become a counselor. I also love to fix things and make them look brand new and cleaning is actually fun to me for some odd reason. Am I crazy? Why can’t I just make up my mind? I really wish I had more lives that I could live through, so that I can choose a different lifestyle for each of them. Maybe in my next life, I’ll become a chef and after that, I’ll become a doctor. If only it were that simple. I also have a hard time fathoming that we live on a round globe orbiting through space. I get anxiety attacks every time I think of it. Our lives are meaningless, yet we care so much. Is there really a god out there watching out for us?
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May I suggest a video? If you haven’t heard of Dr Carl Sagan, Google ” A Pale Blue Dot”. He was an astronomer who died in 1996, and his view of us here on our little rock, and our relationship to the rest of the universe is the subject of the video. It’s about six minutes, and is a powerful piece on our place in the big picture. Moves me to tears every time I see it.
A great bright future awaits you