I have researched many ways to kill myself. I told myself that if I was going to kill myself it would be by hanging. Just to test it I would tie the slip knot and put it around my neck. I would pull it up to the point where I couldn’t breathe and hold it for a few seconds. It have done this a few times. Now just a month later I have a really hard time thinking and I have had increased memory loss. My brain feels.. foggy I guess? I can’t really explain it. Now when I am at work I get exhausted from doing a simple task and have had to stop for a little bit to be able to keep working. My suspicions are that it came from when I tested the knot around my neck. I don’t understand how this could have affected my brain, but I am desperate for an explanation. It scares me to death, please help.
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Your brain is full of cells. Cells need oxygen. If you deprive them of oxygen (by e.g. tightening a noose around your neck), the cells die.
You should consult a doctor.
Hopefully I can get myself to do that. Before that though, I would have to tell my parents I am suicidal. Never gets better does it.
Maybe you could google “anoxic brain injury” and see if it applies to you. The good thing is younger brains can repair some damage. If you’re over the age of 50 you’re screwed. It’s pretty scary either way, but in general if you can still talk without slurring and control your muscles then my guess is any damage you’ve incurred will repair itself over time. I keep reading medical studies that say the human brain keeps building new pathways until the age of 25, so again, a lot is determined by how young you are. It’s probably not a good idea to press your luck though!
I am not an expert on these things but could it be that your brain is being affected by your depression? I find that the worse my depression gets the harder time I have thinking straight. I get exhausted easily and I forget things quickly. Just a suggestion. However, if you do think it was from asphyxiation, please do go to a doctor. I hope everything works out for you.