I had fun this day. We laughed a lot. We talked a lot.
I learned something so big that it opens something in me.
I feel something in me growing. I’m starting to realize my love for myself. Of course I didn’t suddenly gain this. It’s a long process. And I’m managing to keep up with it.
My mother is very sick right now. And I want to try my best to be more mature. To be less afraid of life consequences. And just live.
Of course, I’ll worry still. I’ll still cry. I’ll still feel helpless.
But hey, it’s life. I have loved death so why not life too.
I came to love a person so great I want to help him help myself. And many others that help me shape this from I am right now. To be a greater person is the best gift I can offer to the people who continue to love me.
Most of all, I want to live for myself. I want to give myself the chance I didn’t give before. And now, I’m ready to forgive myself and give myself the best I think I deserve.
Cheers, I hope you’ll live long enough to remember how to breathe again. We all deserve this.
Freeroma, I will keep this cafe open and serve sweeter coffee. Thank you for everything you’ve done for me. I appreciate it greatly. I hope Life is treating you better.
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Congratulations! Loving ourselves is a huge step forward. If you continue there will be other steps to your well deserved wonderful life.
Thank you very much 😀 I hope you’re doing well too.
I think this is the best kind of post i could read from you. And i agree with “the best gift”. .. Me and Life are still on speaking terms, and i found something i thought was lost forever.. Not all bad. I’m really glad you’re at this point. Just remember to reach out when you need it and hold on to your people. I always hope the best for you.
@freeroma
And I to you.
Was it something good? The one you found? If so, that’s great. It can be your step closer to breathing again.
🙂 it is good, a song i thought was gone, cant be replaced. I know it helped me breathe before, but now i think its a reminder, which is ok. We’ll see.