whats give me the right to be angry at you. You were never “mine”. You have every right in the world to do what you want with your life. You take care of our son and I know that you wouldn’t ever put him in danger. So why should I care. I feel stupid for caring so much but like I said you were never “mine” but everyday that goes by I don’t believe you. I don’t trust you. I think that you have always been a liar. You’re a user. You use people up until they have nothing else to offer you. Then you throw them to the curb like a peice of trash. I’ve seen you do it so many times with my own eyes. I just never thought that person would be me.
You wanted a kid and you wanted the father to be in his life that is why you choose me. You picked the perfect target to execute your plan. And it worked of course. You can read people. You know people. You know how to get what you want. You’re toxic J you really fucking are. You are my poison and not a day goes by anymore that I wish I never meet you.
You think you have everything figured out nownim going to be petty. I hope she breaks your heart into a thousand pieces. Why should I be the only person hurting when you did this. Told me once that you loved me and lied right to my face. One day I hope you realize all the mistakes that you made. I hope one day it eats you up inside. But seeing there is no god inner you won’t suffer for your many sins.
rant over…
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For some people their sexual identity is confusing. You may be right and she just out and out used you, or it may be that she was confused hurt both you and herself in the process. Not all, but some women I knew in college “adjusted” their sexual preference based on bad experiences with the opposite sex and had deep conflict regarding their feelings. I’m not implying that this was the situation for your ex or that you had anything to do with it at all, just saying it happens.
But even if at the worst, she did use you, keep this in mind: she saw something special in you that made her want to have a child with your same qualities. Despite the stereotypes and Darwinism, women look for more than physical attributes when considering genetic characteristics of the father.
She had to see something special in you. She wanted the child the two of you brought into the world to share those same traits. I hope he does. I hope you get past this hurt and anger, that you make it all the way to the place where you can accept what is and partner together to raise your son in a meaningful way.
Kids need all the help, love, guidance, and personal validation they can get in this world.
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