Have you told others about being suicidal?

I have had mixed results so far. I talk to my mother about it often and she handles it really well but it makes me feel guilty to see her get sad about it. She asked me if I did it to please take her out with me, which was unnerving.
I tried to talk to my father about it just today. He said I eventually have to stop wallowing in it. I became upset and started crying and trying to explain how hard it is to deal with. He then accused me of yelling at him, started pushing me and trying to goad me into punching him. I took his sunglasses off so I could see his eyes and said “you don’t know me” then I ran away in tears. I walked 10 miles home to avoid riding in his car and heard from my mother that he would UPS me my bag because he does not want to see me anymore.