Im so sick of it. Rolling with the punches. I feel like a hampster on its wheel…spinning and spinning…i just want it all to stop. Every day is the same, if not worse than the one before. I dont understand why i needed to be born.
I always see people on here who say they feel alone or lonely. I just need you to know that relationships/engagements/marriages arent always the answer. Im in a marriage and have never felt more alone in my life. But he would never be my reason for suicide. The depression and self hate stems MUCH deeper than that. Just know the divorce rate is high for a reason. As hard as it is you need to be your own best friend and take care of you first, because when it comes down to it you are the only one you can count on 100% of the time.
So what keeps me here. If it weren’t for my dogs i would be gone. One of my 3 is getting quite elderly and i cant bare to even think about it. My world will stop when i lose her!
4 comments
” I just need you to know that relationships/engagements/marriages arent always the answer. ” Amen!
I can definitely relate to these feelings. the feeling of being stuck, the feeling of being more lonely even while being in a relationship. It’s easy to feel more lonely in a relationship when you can spend every moment with someone, yet they still don’t understand you at all. we all want to be understood, but it’s never going to be perfect. It’s hard but maybe it’s the effort that counts.
I feel the same way. I never chose to be born, never chose to live
Animals have the strange ability to communicate without using words. There’s so much less guile involved, even when they’re trying to manipulate you into feeding them by acting like they’re starving or something. I think they’re more direct – you can get closer to a creature that doesn’t talk because all those words don’t get in the way of what’s really going on. It’s different with people. We have these words floating around in our heads all the time, and it’s impossible to know what’s going on inside someone else’s head. It’s hard enough figuring out what’s going on in our own heads.