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Sorry to hear about your situation and I can understand where you’re coming from. Perhaps you have friends or distant relatives that you could get in touch with?

I’m not too far from your predicament. My parents are elderly and I don’t think they’ll last for too many years and I have few family connections and friends.

One time I had an argument with a few of my university friends and I thought that was the end of our relationship…I felt really quite alone. But we patched things up and we were fine after. I also have some friends from high school I could reconnect with if I had to-but they live further away.

Losing my family would be very difficult as well-I’m fairly sociable and don’t like being alone. So I can relate. You could consider joining groups or volunteering or taking courses and that’d be one way to reconnect with people and make new friends. The key is not to come on too strong initially or look desperate because people can sense it and they get distant.

As for methods if you really intend to go through with it, I’d suggest doing some research first, you might find a better method (ofc we can’t discuss that here).

And last resort there are people here who read posts even if they don’t reply so you can feel that you do have some company. Best of luck in whatever you do.