In 2015 I told myself this Is the year I’m going kill myself or finally move on with my life.I decided to give life a try & things have gotten worse-er since then.My life Is a joke lmao.
I have a friend who lost her life in 2015. I don’t know how she died. Accident? Self-inflicted? inflicted by another? As for me I am 23. How old are you? I swore to myself 2012 would be my last year on Earth. When I was 18. I did not expect it to get “worse” I expected it to stay the same – constantly empty silence. It has gotten very much worse, with these such as sexual molestation, arrest and jail, forced antipsychotic shots to sedate me when I was not being anymore violent than usual. I can not even have a home…… I am about as homeless as there is. My heart hollowed out.
I have been half dead and pretending that I am not alive since 2012. I have just been waiting for all that time to end it. As long as I am trapped with my psychotic parents I am having a hard time being able to leave or aquire equipment to kill myself… I have been trying to leave for years. I am waiting on the day I can walk out the door and never look back. I may walk to Arizona. But more probable I will walk to the hills and overdose.
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I have a friend who lost her life in 2015. I don’t know how she died. Accident? Self-inflicted? inflicted by another? As for me I am 23. How old are you? I swore to myself 2012 would be my last year on Earth. When I was 18. I did not expect it to get “worse” I expected it to stay the same – constantly empty silence. It has gotten very much worse, with these such as sexual molestation, arrest and jail, forced antipsychotic shots to sedate me when I was not being anymore violent than usual. I can not even have a home…… I am about as homeless as there is. My heart hollowed out.
I have been half dead and pretending that I am not alive since 2012. I have just been waiting for all that time to end it. As long as I am trapped with my psychotic parents I am having a hard time being able to leave or aquire equipment to kill myself… I have been trying to leave for years. I am waiting on the day I can walk out the door and never look back. I may walk to Arizona. But more probable I will walk to the hills and overdose.
It’s easy to do if you are pushed to do it. It’s the simplest thing in the world when it’s the only thing left for you to do.