You know, when I was younger, I never understood the whole “die young and beautiful” thing people used to say on TV. But I understand it now. And yes, it definitely is better to off yourself while you are still young and beautiful, and fully physically functioning. If anyone tells you otherwise, they are lying. There is no plus to getting older. There just isn’t.
So here I am, still typing and breathing. I have had multiple imminent plans. Obviously none got done more than half-ass, if even that far. If I had been able to go the first time, or any time after, I would have spared myself and others a shit ton of pain. Younger would have been better, from where I now see it. Yet here I am.
I remember the first time I tried scotch, my girlfriend told me it evaporates on your tongue. That sensation always gives me goosebumps now. It’s blessed stuff.
Yes why not?
I last week i was thinking that pain would never leave me so i could never laugh like before and etc, but hey i have found ways that kills it perfectly.:)
Cut story short:
Mark Manson – The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F*ck
It made me change and stop attempting to think anything suicidal or etc.
By the way i now laugh much better than those times 😀
*ps: users may think that what my problem is. Well i don’t say it intentionaly because i think it can make others more suicidal. Even normal people (if they understand it). It took me 2 years of completethinking, researching and other progresses to just stand against it. It’s always there but it’s not taking over me and i don’t give a f* to it.
Sometimes that my MDD takes over it beats me, but hey “rise, fall down, rise again” 🙂
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Mental pain? So far no, except during distractions, and the few days at a time it has gone into remission.
And then when one gets older or sicker, there’s physical pain, which adds to the mental pain like a multiplier effect. Lovely.
When one gets older some of our poor decisions made years ago, if the consequences are long lasting and serious, will haunt us just like a disease.
Oh, it already is. It already is…
You know, when I was younger, I never understood the whole “die young and beautiful” thing people used to say on TV. But I understand it now. And yes, it definitely is better to off yourself while you are still young and beautiful, and fully physically functioning. If anyone tells you otherwise, they are lying. There is no plus to getting older. There just isn’t.
So here I am, still typing and breathing. I have had multiple imminent plans. Obviously none got done more than half-ass, if even that far. If I had been able to go the first time, or any time after, I would have spared myself and others a shit ton of pain. Younger would have been better, from where I now see it. Yet here I am.
probably not xD
Depends on how much scotch you have.
Southern Comfort. For a while that shit was solving all my problems for up to several hours at a time.
I remember the first time I tried scotch, my girlfriend told me it evaporates on your tongue. That sensation always gives me goosebumps now. It’s blessed stuff.
A1957 where are you from?
@The MissingOne I am in the US
Yes why not?
I last week i was thinking that pain would never leave me so i could never laugh like before and etc, but hey i have found ways that kills it perfectly.:)
Cut story short:
Mark Manson – The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F*ck
It made me change and stop attempting to think anything suicidal or etc.
By the way i now laugh much better than those times 😀
*ps: users may think that what my problem is. Well i don’t say it intentionaly because i think it can make others more suicidal. Even normal people (if they understand it). It took me 2 years of completethinking, researching and other progresses to just stand against it. It’s always there but it’s not taking over me and i don’t give a f* to it.
Sometimes that my MDD takes over it beats me, but hey “rise, fall down, rise again” 🙂