I feel even worthless today. It’s my mums birthday. I couldn’t even gas myself properly. What a fail. Now I have to wait till tommorow.
I’m really annoyed. I’m lying in my bed head hurts. I don’t want to be here another minute. I really don’t.
I cannot believe my own sister did not come to the hospital. So called ‘friends’ pfffttttt. Every dog for themselves. But my own family. Gronks yesterday on shit so they say I’m on G?! I fuvking don’t even like it. Hospital staff so rude. I’m begging them my chest was hurting and she kept telling me I took G. If I took G why inject me with Valium ? Expecially if I drank ?!?!
I go back into St Vincent hospital wobbling telling them I shouldn’t have left I don’t feel well at all. ***** goes on about G. Mother fucker u took my bloods clearly u would know what I had in my system. Tells me go wait in the waiting room. I look at her like wtf n say I was just in herewhy do I need to wait I can barely stand.
You are being rude you can leave. I get up as I’m walking off says you can walk now cant you. Lol Im going to find her and make sure she never walks.
I heard my sister tell my mum to get dressed there taking her dinner. No one bothered inviting me.
I can’t see tomorow.
My sisters are talking really low.
Wow they are bitching about me. Wooowwwwww omg. N that little *****. She’s become this rat from hell. I don’t even know who she is.
Ok an hour later.snapped at them.
Assholes. I tell
Them
I’m
A junkie on H. N why didn’t they come hospital Why coz first apperently she knows why I was drunk and on drugs. Eeeehhh no. Dumb *****.nour fell asleep
Fuck em
They actually hate me
They hate me
I hate me
Why can’t I have a gun two seconds I’m gone.
Let them laugh at my grave
My head hurts so much
My chest oddly enough is ok
My head
They are ungrateful selfish dogs.
Please now please let me die
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Idk what to say, but some of what you said is true under the following conditions:
1 if you live under their roof;
2 if you do what you do with their money and
3 if you underage.
Then you are becoming a burden.
Why is that?, simply, society has a rule, study, grow up, find a job have money, marry, children and the circle continues.
They don’t respect you, you were born there, but at some point they lost you and now you are not one of them.
If they don’t realize their faults that led you to the choices you make, then they are blind and you excluded.
I’m not on drugs, but I’m excluded. I only have a place to live because my father made so many shit in my life that his guilty made him let me live in one of his houses.
I’m old, 30 I have a degree, but I live isolated. I bworks mostly at home. I wake up wishing to he dead and I go to bed wishing I never wake up again.
Stop focusing on them, focus on you. Death is for all.
I should not say it, but stop doing drugs.
About gun, if you live in a country whithout gun control you just neednto buy one, I tried to buy one here but we have gun control regulations, I also tried to buy from the drug dealer but even he didn’t have one to sell thst time. (it waw long ago 5 years more or less)
I just gave some opinions about what you said and shared some real life experiences.
Good luck.