I went back to school and work today, after nearly a week of staying in bed. Ive been eating less than 400 calories a day, but at this point i don’t even feel hungery.
Things have been looking better for me, but i feel so selfish for not being happy. I feel numb and sluggish, and i am anxiety stricken every moment of the day.
My mother hasnt been home much, so i dont have to deal with her as much as i usually do. Ive had a break from the screaming.
although my mother is screaming at me, my brain is hollering at the top of its lungs. Everything is buzzing and it wont stop, i can feel the pain all the way through my fingertips.
numbess and buzzing isnt a good combination. My heart feels heavy, my feet are dragging.
I havent cut in 6 weeks but im craving the blade again.
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Honestly, I think you should make yourself eat more, or at least get ahold of some vitamins to help out.. it can help the body feel better, less sluggish, having decent nutrition even if it’s hard to keep and not a fix for everything.
Happy isn’t something we can control. Feeling the way you do isn’t in your total control either.
If you have some level of gratitude for the good things you do have and don’t brag about having it to people who don’t, then you aren’t selfish.