what does this word even mean? I guarantee 99.9% of happy people aren’t truly happy they’ve just accepted everything in there life and decide sure I’m happy but deep down they’re miserable too.
To anyone who knows me irl I’m one of the happiest, funniest, off the wall weird and corky people ever. I smile a lot I laugh even more. I put on this show to be happy just so everyone around me is happy. It’s exhausting. But any time I’m alone all I can do is be sad. And I fill that sad with men. Or I did up until about a month ago. about a month ago I got roofied and it’s messing with me more than it should. Because I’m legit missing 4 hours of my life. I mentally came to 4 hours after leaving the bar driving in my car and that in its self angers me because no matter how drunk I get I NEVER drive anymore I actually pre order my Uber before I go out and my Uber showed up but I wasn’t there when she did. Aside from that I had a lump on my head bruises everywhere and I was bleeding down there. And I’m so mad about it because I’m a hoe I will put out there is no need to drug me and rape me. I’ve been raped a lot actually and it pisses me off it’s part of the reason I became a hoe cause you can’t rape the willing, but apparently you can with drugs.
I’m so tired of this life I’m tired of making everyone around me happy just to go home and be miserable. Why can’t I just say screw it and just end it? Why do I have to suffer to make others happy. Ugh. Ok end the stupid rant this is the only place I can actually get all my feelings out without being judged. Thanks for reading
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I actually see a lot of happy people being happy honestly. It seems as though they just don’t care about others most of the time even though they wouldn’t admit it. They are the completely selfish individuals that would walk past a homeless old lady without giving them so much as a smile with the excuse of how they probably have money and are most likely there because they want to be etc. These are usually the people that go to a building once a week with a book and think they get a lot of good credit for such things.
I’m so sorry for the pain that you have gone through. You deserve much MUCH better! You are worth more. You are worth flowers unexpectedly and foot massages in the morning while having breakfast in bed.
Can I ask why you get so sad when you are alone? Do you not like being alone at all?
I’m sure your totally awesome. I’m awesome too like you. I make people happy and smile and laugh but inside I’m dead. It’s something we don’t deserve but we do deserve to have the best things that this life could never bring us. I think we both will find that someday.
Some people are happy because they just don’t let anything stand in their way.
When I was 16 I wanted to leave my home town but had no money. It took 2 years to realise that I didn’t need money to leave. It’s easy to live well with no money in the u.s. Well….easy enough for someone who sees the dreary life of working a job to pay bills just to survive. Work so you can sleep and sleep so you can work…lol wtf?
Thanks for your kind words. And idk why I get sad when I’m alone, cause my brain makes me feel even more alone than I already am. I’ve as much given up on finding someone who will deal with my depression. It doesn’t run me I just have certain nights where I need to cry and my last bf didn’t understand that so we broke up.
They are out there but I think women might have biology standing in their way.
It seems that nice guys don’t attract as well for many reasons too numerous to list.
My depression doesn’t run me either but I notice that it doesn’t help to let any interest know about it.
You shouldn’t worry too much. Patience can lead us to great places and you will find someone as wonderful as you.
Its a balance…
Smart women recognize and will be attracted to the stable male….
The vast majority will not because they want the “excitement” of the bad guy… the risky one…
But I can tell you that I am all,,,, and the right woman can be and is attracted to that…. I know because I have such a woman in my life now… although they are EXTREMELY rare to find…
It is what makes her high class and way above the rest…. 🙂
I bet you are right wanted. “I guarantee 99.9% of happy people aren’t truly happy…” Before I even attempted to comment I looked up several dictionary definitions of happy. The common ground among them is that happy is either going to be temporary and/or owing to circumstances beyond our control. I could say much more but it would be a mighty long read.
The easy type, the ones that are loose,,, lack morals, values, and self respect…
Are NEVER what a better guy wants…. so don’t be fooled….
Act like a hoe, and you won’t be treated with respect…. ever…. I can very much assure you I and many guys I know are like that….
We ignore those types….
You shouldn’t be so sure of yourself.
You do know what perspective is and how it works don’t you?
You are ignorant if you believe you can speak for millions of human beings because of yourself and a few more you believe you know well.
No offense.
Foundhappiness – How’s life up in your castle, your highness? I consider myself fortunate to have been granted just a nugget of your infallible wisdom. From preaching the virtues of christianity one day to displaying the true and undeniably glaring hypocrisy and arrogance that is your core, you are certainly an interesting (lack of) character. Should you find time in your busy schedule, may the rest of humanity be granted a modicum of leniency when you consider and judge our flaws? We, the residents of the lower regions upon which you gaze, would be eternally grateful for your kindness. You are, after all, a legend in your own mind.
Wanted 85, I apologize for my sarcastic reply on your post. I just have a difficult time ignoring stupid. It’s one of my biggest flaws.
I wish I could help you other than to say I’d like to also be happy permanently. It’s a struggle that, for me, is a minute to minute thing, peaks and valleys, up and down. The only real happiness I seem to find is in the little things that I take for granted every day, the things that I know I would wish for if one day, they were missing. Beyond that, well, happiness is an elusive wisp of vapor that I can only breathe when the wind blows my direction. Hang in there with the rest of us, ok?
Foundhappiness thinks highly of himself obviously. But ironically enough it’s in his last comment that you can start to see where hope lay.
A “better” guy might not show respect. It’s because he is a piece of shit that doesn’t deserve any less than an ass kicking and a need for dentures. A great guy will however give you respect and will have patience enough to see through what seems obvious but is veiled by the many facets of human nature that develop into the many reasons one might act loose.
Don’t listen to this harassing bullshit foundhappiness wants to spew at you. For someone who can’t understand a book that is apart of his belief system, to be taken as knowledgeable on any subject, is to put your own self at risk.
I say all this for wanted85. This isn’t to put foundhappiness down.
NO ONE SHOULD BE JUDGED HERE AS WE ALL DO WHAT WE DO BECAUSE OF DIFFERING REASONS AND THIS IS A SITE FOR SUPPORT. NOT THUS HATE THAT SAYS “No one wants you.” !!!
Foundhappiness, I’m glad you found the one for you and are happy. let me just state, In my opinion it’s no different for a female to have a lot of sex or be easy than it is for a male to have a lot of sex with different female, I enjoy sex, does that make me a bad person or not worthy of ever finding love? No it does not. Does that mean any person I’m interested in I screw? No if I truly want a relationship with someone I’m not gonna jump in the sack with them, I’m going to wait. But as a single female I see nothing wrong with me having fun as long as I’m using protection. I don’t attract a certain type of men either I simply close off myself from feelings because I know I’m messed up so I just make it easier by not getting close to anyone. So please don’t judge me on my decisions in life
Flutterby thank you for sticking up for me, some day I may find someone that makes me feel ok with being here I’m kind of to the point of I’m not sure what I want or weather I want that at the moment I hate being alone but I also feel it’s selfish to bring someone in to deal with my sometimes sadness.
🙂
It’s not selfish if they care about you. Because you are most definitely worth it!
Any female that sleeps around is a who__. No matter the “reasons and excuses”.
And word gets out too among close circles…. which is going to ruin it for you among anyone close who is actually interested in you as a person and looking for a serious love.
I can easily sleep around,,, I’ve had when try… if I don’t love them, I don’t.
And that is the difference between a lady with self respect and one who is of a lower standard.
I love sex as much as any other guy…. but I have morals and they matter more than just getting my nut off.
And that is also one thing my current lady knows and appreciates, because she is the same.
It will only come back to bite you later,,, even if it is within your own mind,,,, it will show in any relationship you even had a chance at.
Guys know sweetie.
And we don’t go there.
😉
Once again foundhappiness this is a site for support so please stop tearing people down. If you can’t say anything nice them don’t say anything at all.
You are wrong in your assumptions anyway. I am a guy and I don’t agree in the slightest.
I see how you talk on here… you are P whipped.
I care too, in real life women and others know and see that…
But I don’t go around kissing A..
I say its like it is.
I don’t believe enough people do that these days for “fear of hurting their feelings”.
And that kind of mentality is what has led to this world lacking responsibility for it’s actions….. aka school shootings as an example.
No-one cares to speak up and speak the truth as it is…..
Except those like me….
Coz I simply don’t give a F…. whether anyone likes it or not.
Once and flutterby I appreciate your kindness. <3
Foundhappiness again I am happy that you are happy and content in your life. Calling me sweetie after talking down to me shows me what type of “man” you are. I’m fine with people being upfront and real with me, on true issues. There was a time I was a drunken alcoholic who not only didn’t give a damn about my life but also didn’t give a damn about the people around me and I’d drink and drive, wonderful people on this sight told me how stupid I was called me out on it and I appreciated it more than Anything because it made me realize I was making a mistake that not only could hurt me but someone else. I’m the first to admit to my mistakes. But this post was simply me just venting without judgment, and you come at me like your higher and better than anyone else out there and you’re not. I don’t know why you even find it necessary to comment on this if all you’re gonna do is try and drag me down, news flash, I’m on a suicide website obviously I’ve already been dragged down enough in life. Like I said I’m all for people being upfront and real with me, you’re just being hateful and trying to hurt me. I’m sorry I’m not what you expect a woman to be but also like I’ve stated men can go out and be with however many women they like no one bats an eye but a woman does the same and it’s nothing but shame. I’m hurting no one. I’ve done nothing wrong. And in my eyes I’m worthy of nothing but at the same time maybe someone will find me worthy of them if so maybe I’ll be less depressed maybe not, but I live in the here and now not the future. This is the last response you’ll receive from me, I’m not gonna argue with you, when I’m nothing but a trashy whore in your eyes so all you’re going to respond with is shame on me, so with that being said Have a good day 🙂
More words of wisdom from the arrogant, self centered wannabe man. It’s going to be a bitter pill for you to swallow when your perfect lady figures out what you really are and she dumps you like a hot potato, but I personally will enjoy it. And that day is coming, just like the days when every other woman who was unfortunate enough to make your pathetic acquaintance decided that you lack the manliness and intelligence nature gave a female kitten.
What the hell gives you the right to come on this site and sit in judgment, you arrogant little punk? Is it not obvious that someone is hurting here and is looking for support as opposed to your NARROW MINDED archaic and chauvinistic OPINION, you ignorant little pansy? Granted, I’m doing very little to display my ability to show restraint by replying to your asinine stupidity, therefore showing a huge character flaw of my own, but you, found stupidity, you are only displaying the shallow character and ignorance that constitutes what you blindly see as “personality.” You are a chauvinistic, simple idiot, who is incapable of empathy and sympathy. With every word our of your big, arrogant mouth, you portray yourself as the FOOL we have all come to know and despise. Why the hell do you post here? Hell, I’ll answer my own question. Because it makes you feel good to rain down your ignorance upon the downtrodden. Because you NEED to feel superior to something, when you yourself are a worthless hunk of fly shit.
Why not do the world a favor, you boring, unoriginal mentally incompetent dolt – stuff a sock in your mouth. Your head is empty enough as it is, and needs something to fill it. 🙂 🙂
would you like fries with that? 🙂
For the record….
I left those women,,, except for the wife I was glad to be rid of anyway. lol
Your worthless opinion has been noted…
Now use some ketchup… it’s neat to the napkins…
You preach christianity and virtue, yet are incapable and unwilling to practice tolerance. Hypocrite. You stand in judgment of those not conforming to standards you wave around when it is convenient for YOU. Hypocrite. You flaunt your new found “perfect lady” and pretend you are superior. I personally feel sorry for her and the ignorance she has to deal with in you, you loud mouthed child. I can’t imagine the domination and contrived masculinity you heap upon her in an attempt to control and form her into the ideal female puppet YOU FEEL YOU DESERVE. You deserve nothing. You are nothing. Flutterby is “P whipped?” Seriously? Is that how you, in your boundless ignorance, view tolerance, empathy and sensitivity? Wow. You have a lot of growing up to do, you neanderthal.
Your view of females is tired, and it ended quite some time ago. Perhaps if you educated yourself a bit and climbed out from under the rock you choose to live under, you would see this, but ignorance, like the shelter of your empty head, is bliss. 😉 🙂
known facts….women that sleep around…inferior quality.
I feel compassion for the hurting, even you.
You like your fries burned..,, add sea salt and more ketchup.
lol 🙂
Foundhypocrisy I love to drop by this site and see your self-imploding stupidity month after month. It reminds me what a real loser looks like and the rest of us are actually doing pretty good. Enjoy, everyone.
I’m ..not..worthy
A1957 you are worthy
Thank you wanted.
Known fact. Women that sleep around, like men who sleep around, are searching. Searching for happiness, connection, permanence. Known fact, there are no set rules for people searching for this. To each his/her own. Known fact, you purport to be morally superior, yet are incapable of accepting that which doesn’t meet your twisted, demented standards, standards you simply repeat and yet obviously neither believe nor practice, because you are quite incapable of creating an original thought that doesn’t involve narrow mindedness and intolerance. You are, in a word or two, immature and boring.
Compassion is partly defined by its ability to see beyond the need to judge. It is capable of recognizing and accepting the known fact that humans are imperfect, and searching, and each search will take us places others don’t approve of, but that’s ok, they’re just as human, just as flawed as the rest of us.
You don’t understand this concept, and you make it known fact each and every time you comment. You are trite and banal, and lacking depth and moral character. IF I believed you left those other women, I’d thank you on their behalf for doing them a favor, but anyone who reads your sexist garbage knows better. Spotting an ignorant man who is totally incapable of keeping a woman around is simple. How do I know? Because I am one. And I can admit it. No clue whatsoever what a woman needs, and lonely as hell because of it, but you know what? It’s not their fault for being promiscuous or licentious, it is mine, for lacking skills.
You fool noone, except yourself.
You will hide behind the safety of spirituality, mightily and loudly thumping your bible, decrying the heathen and belittling the weak. And you will portray yourself as the bellwether of morality, while guaranteeing hell, fire and brimstone awaits those who think for themselves. You will claim the favor of divinity in your crusade of cleansing.
And in so doing, you aptly and regularly put the ignorance of your antiquated paradigms on display, for all to see.
Keep up the good work. If not even remotely enlightened, you certainly are consistent.
Wanted 85, I’m sorry. I’ll shutup now.
Once, don’t apologize for being kind. I really do appreciate it.