My jealousy has now reached a pathological level. I am jealous of everyone and everything good that happens to other people. Sometimes I even think that those people don’t deserve that much happiness, while others have to suffer so much emotionally and/or physically. Why are some people so lucky in life? Why were they born in families who love and support them unconditionally? Why did some people just get the perfect genes/looks which make them feel comfortable in their own skin? I really wished I could experience this feeling of being comfortable in my own skin or even of loving myself. That’s something I’ve never felt in my life and probably never will feel. And that’s probably the reason why no one is attracted to me or wants to get involved with me as a person.
I really envy couples that I see everywhere, in the city, on the bus, in the library, just everywhere…… and that’s why I hate spring…it’s the worst season ever…. making people feel attracted to each other…. I envy every other SP member who is in a relationship…..I envy people who are loved and admired by their partners….. while I have no one….. But hey, I can understand…. I’m human trash after all, so why do I even expect human affection?
Does someone have similar feelings regarding jealousy?
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I do.
i always think that it’s unfair that some people are born into a well-off family. My cousins never have to worry about money all their life and could pursue their education wherever they wanted, even in countries known to have expensive tuitions. What makes them deserve to have all that while I don’t? I feel jealous of people who have confidence. I feel jealous of people who are so carefree. I get jelous whenever I see people achieving their dreams and living the life that they want. Why can’t the same happen to me?
I just want them to be less happier than they’re now and see if they still can say “don’t worry too much and just live the way you want” when they’re living a life where they don’t have much choice. I know that I shouldn’t be thinking this way, but it irks me when people think that life is as simple as that.
You can beat this. I did. Jealousy is an impulsive response, like screaming when someone pricks you. Just as you can teach yourself not to scream, you can teach yourself not to feel jealous. Well, you’ll always feel that initial stab of jealousy, but you can mute the response. Just keep telling yourself that jealousy makes people ugly. It does. So next time you start to feel jealous, choose not to be ugly.
I get that feeling all the time. I think it’s totally unfair that SOME people’s lives are so great while others, like mine, is absolute HELL. I can totally relate to this.
You are right about what you said. Agree 100%