So far in 2 weeks I have tried to hang myself several times, I have tried the helium hood, I have snuck into a 5 storey block to contemplate jumping off. I now want to die at home by drugs overdose, hopefully I can get hold of the drugs and not suffer too much in the mean time.
I’ve noticed my fear of suicide always varies, sometimes I freak out at the thought of killing myself, other times I only feel a strong urge. I wonder what it will be like to take a suicide pill, will I go into a fearful panic once swallowed or will I be calm or happy even.
I’m reminded by everything that im a goner due to my medication damaged brain. I really wanted to live and get old but not in this state. I wish I was dead im not only void of life but I’m in intense suffering, I was one of the strongest people before recent tragic events, and hopefully I will be strong enough to commit suicide ironically nothing takes more strength than ending your own life but suiciders are often thought of as weak when in reality suicide is actually the hardest thing to do, it is easy to wish you were dead but to go through with it is tough even when in unbearable pain, we are hardwired to survive and Im hating this.
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WHY WERE YOU PUT ON THE MEDICATION THAT YOU FEEL HAS CAUSED YOU BRAIN DAMAGE?
YOU MAY BE HAVING PARANOID DELUSIONS FROM SIDE EFFECTS OF MEDS
HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN SUFFERING FROM THE IDEA THAT YOU HAVE UNBEATABLE BRAIN DAMAGE
HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN OFF OF THE MEDICATION.
STOP TRYING NOW UNTIL YOU CAN ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS.
I have suffered 3 months 247 pain and insomnia it came from the medication there are dozens of victims like myself in forums and stats on completed suicide after taking the poison I had. I’m not paranoid, you can be force medicated if the authorities simply feel you are belligerent, I thought I could get away with a months course but too late. I thought you said you had experience with antipsychotics you should know what I’m talking about
It’s quite the opposite, I think.
Everyone dies in the end after all. In fact, it’s very easy to die. I won’t tell you how, everyone finds a way to it in the end after all.
But it’s the part about continuing to live. Now that, that is much harder.
You are wrong mate, just because we all die isn’t an argument for making death easy, one day you will understand when you’re facing death yourself.
This is why euthanasia should be legal. Done correctly by an outside source. No mistakes. Geez. If people want to leave/die, let them
Sickening that they have laws to force people to have to live on through anything, especially when many have been made suicidal by the system. I could fail my attempt and end up quadriplegic and blind and my only words may be ‘i want to die please’ and they will go leg over limb to make sure Ilived as long as possible what a fucking joke
All very strange, these laws. “Do no harm”, meaning make a person such as you illustrate, suffer through life unless they are willing die solely by starvation or dehydration, provided they are otherwise in “good” health, assumes life itself imposes no harm. Absurd.
Primum non nocere is the Latin phrase that “do no harm” originates from. Modern medicine gives zero fucks about that ideology
You obviously dont want to die. If you really wanted to die you would of jumped off the building.
Overdosing is the least effective way to kill yourself. Go get help
Yep i don’t want to die because I chose not to jump, fear and survival instinct had nothing to do with it right..
Overdosing is how the euthanasia clinics do it, you go get help with your lack of knowledge
And Where are going to get the drugs that euthanasia clincs use? You they don’t sell them to the public. There are sold to those clinics exclusively
There are a number of drugs to use, and there are darknet websites that sell everything from illegal drugs to prescription opiates and sedatives using bitcoin
You say you want to overdose in your home now and that changed from jumping and a helium hood.
I have been putting off overdosing for about a year now haha, but my preferred method of suicide is a gunshot…. I’m trying to find away from least effective (overdose) to most effective (gunshot) but all I have is pills. I literally just put it off and off and off but then like I’m so prepared one day I’m just gonna go off and do it.
I always say this but I almost did it the other day. I was going to overdose but then I just got high and smoked some weed. But I had the perfect opportunity.
My only problem is I don’t want to rush it if my gunshot can come through you know? Like I’m working my ass off trying to get this to happen.
But I might you know, give up and just have to swallow my pills. I’ve been holding off on gunshot for so long.
As the days get warmer, the nights get shorter and the desert gets drier. It is the perfect atmosphere for an overdose. I’m sure I’ll have some time but I’ll definitely have to work on finding my bullet.
Gunshot is a bit risky if you miss, id rather fail an overdose than a gunshot. Lol at smoking weed, sounds like it saved your life that day. i thought overdose is reliable if you’ve got the right drugs, however it’s a scary thought having to swallow the lethal amount