I just feel like I’ve always been picked on or ignored with an empty life and an empty future…
Plus, I’m running out of things to do most of the time, and I get bored a lot, no one to talk to, not sure what to do or even what I want to do…
I don’t even have a way of killing myself, I guess I often had something to look forward to after all to stop myself from dying, I think I genuinely don’t have much now though…
I kijd of really, really want a girlfriend though, that’s about it, but otherwise… no…
To me, the question was never “why?,” but “why not?”
I’ve been doing better for a while, but some things came up and are just making things worse for me.
As for what stopped me, last October I shot myself in the head, and the fact that I got emergency surgery kept me around…well, that and the fact that apparently I’m a badass, because all that I got was a scar and a little slower at reading.
Persistent depression and a sense of worthlessness was the reason I ached to CTB. What stopped me four times was my suicide par+ners. You read that right. Based on my experience, not once, but four times, they proved to be highly effective at preventing suicide.
The other thing that stopped me other times was my depression would lift before I could get my affairs in order and get the deed done.
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I just feel like I’ve always been picked on or ignored with an empty life and an empty future…
Plus, I’m running out of things to do most of the time, and I get bored a lot, no one to talk to, not sure what to do or even what I want to do…
I don’t even have a way of killing myself, I guess I often had something to look forward to after all to stop myself from dying, I think I genuinely don’t have much now though…
I kijd of really, really want a girlfriend though, that’s about it, but otherwise… no…
I kind of want to die…
To me, the question was never “why?,” but “why not?”
I’ve been doing better for a while, but some things came up and are just making things worse for me.
As for what stopped me, last October I shot myself in the head, and the fact that I got emergency surgery kept me around…well, that and the fact that apparently I’m a badass, because all that I got was a scar and a little slower at reading.
You failed? Biggest buzzkill ever… How did you fail. How could you have failed? Are you alright…. now?
Persistent depression and a sense of worthlessness was the reason I ached to CTB. What stopped me four times was my suicide par+ners. You read that right. Based on my experience, not once, but four times, they proved to be highly effective at preventing suicide.
The other thing that stopped me other times was my depression would lift before I could get my affairs in order and get the deed done.
I have no way to live my life