I’ve repeatedly been suicidal in the past number of years becoming more and more frequent. That meant that my note has changed over this period naturally. The latest note wrote today is as follows:
I’m sorry to everyone Mum, Dad i’m sorry. I just can’t continue my life means nothing and all i do is cause pain to everyone inside it. The closer you are the worse it is, so i’ve ended it to save everyone from the pain. You will feel better when i’ve done it.
I can’t help but wish i made different choices but all i see is death at the end of the tunnel. There are no diversions, no side paths or roads just straight into the abyss. I can’t see a future for myself in this world, i don’t belong here, i don’t deserve this life. Therefore, i will no longer allow anyone to suffer on my part or get in the way of someone who wants to live.
I love you all i really do that’s why i’ve made this decision.
[name goes here].
This may very well be the final note i make.