My last wish before going was to show I have some worth by getting straight A’s this semester. It’s pointless cause academically I’m screwed and have no future career I wish to pursue. Anyways, I’ve accomplished my final task and it feels great. It’s comforting knowing I was able to do something right with my stubborn determination even if it’s something small.
Now that that’s out of the way I just have to get through these last few weeks. It’s like a light at the end of a tunnel. I’ll be able to escape all of my problems and the crappy life that came with it. Knowing I’m allowed to avoid the pain of the rest of my life is such an amazing liberating feeling. It’ll all be over soon…
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“I’ll be able to escape all of my problems and the crappy life that came with it. Knowing I’m allowed to avoid the pain of the rest of my life is such an amazing liberating feeling. It’ll all be over soon…”
i feel the same way. im killing myself about 3 weeks from now and i feel so excited. i dont remember the last time when i felt this happy my life
I guess you could say I accomplished my last goal as well. I got a job and payed a 1300$ department of motor vehicles fine so I could drive again. But of course about a month after I could finally drive again, they took my license and suspended it again, now I pay 650$/more in fines and have another charge coming my way. I just needed my license so I could find a way to pick up a shotgun and drive to the backwoods to commit. Now I’m thinking I’m going to have to commit at home.. my goal was to die by gunshot to head, now I’m going to have to experiment with other methods.. not what I was dreaming but gotta get out of here one way or another. I’ve had my license suspended since oct 2016. My suicide date was planned for August 1, 2012.. but I never got the chance because until now I didn’t have any income to afford my gun.
I’m actually the same. There’s nothing I want to do in terms of jobs. Meh. But here I am…
I wanna go in a few months. I agree that really would be a liberating feeling. I need a long, long rest. *yawns
What makes you so sure you will avoid your life’s pain? Do you really believe that when your physical body stops working, that’s the end of you?
Im not against suicide…sounds kind of weird to say, but I know that a person can only take so much stress in one lifetime.
If there is any way you can go on, you should.
I’m failing too, don’t worry. I under more than most and oh boy does life suck, but killing yourself isn’t going to help. What if you mess up and are convinced by some idiots that you need to be happy? Life is garbage, yes, but garbage can grow food if used right. I don’t want you to be sad, angry or homicidal, but you might and that’s fine. I have only one reason to live and it’s Instant Noodels. People can hurt me, but noodles are always there for. Just remember that, even you’re failing, there’s always food. I’ll give any advice you need, and I don’t mind helping. Anywho, try to survive this year and I know you’ll find something to fight for, whether it’s a person or beating all tbe Dark Souls, you’ll find one.
Yes, I feel really bad right now, but hearing about your love for Instant Noodles certainly made me smile 🙂 thanks. For me music has been the one to always stand by my side thru thick and thin. Unless a miracle happens to make my life turn around I don’t feel there’s much hope. However, for you I’ll try to stay strong, take care.
Tight noodle advice
Noodles FTW.