it’s been 8 years since I last posted
I’m proud to say I’m no longer drained by RD
Ive overcome it – but not the depression I’ve always struggled with , that existed even before he existed in my life
today was a very tough day, it’s been building up for 10 days now, the sadness, the loneliness.. the unhappiness. I don’t understand where it’s coming from or why it’s so heavy on me today – It does come and go but it’s normally triggered – this time, I can’t find the source..
i cried most of my morning into the afternoon, fighting thoughts about suicide – the many ways I could end clouded my mind but then images of my sister having to find me in such conditions drowned me and I asked myself WHY would my family deserve that from me – they don’t.
Its hard battling against these thoughts, they suffocate me sometimes
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What’s RD?
Research and Development
Not in this context. First post explains.
I get it now, thanks. Read first post
hold on… hold on… hold on 🙂
sorry I don’t have advice except for this ^