You see some people eating right and exercising, bailing hard and trying to patch the little holes with everything they got… it won’t matter, they may make it a few more years than the rest of us, but in the end they sink like everyone else, and they usually suffer more because of it.
A few people work their asses off trying to decorate their ships and gather as much expensive shit as possible on their boats, it won’t matter, pretty and rich sinks just the same as ugly and poor.
Some people dedicate their lives to picking up everybody else’s garbage and carrying it around on their boats while trying to talk everyone else into caring about the great mother ocean, or maybe talking about the great sea kingdom we all go to if we pick up some garbage before we drown. It’s useless, the ocean doesn’t give a shit, eventually it will kill them all too, and the great sea kingdom afterlife is a friggin lie.
A few sad folks just sit on their boats and cry and cry, lamenting all the unfairness, maybe even jump out of their boats to end it all early… people pretend it’s a big deal… but nobody really cares much for long, they got their own sinking to do.
Still other people tie their boats together and screw and party as much as they can in some attempt to have as much fun as possible before the bubbles come, in the end the parties won’t matter anymore than the crying did, it’s just a pointless waste of time like everything else is.
But a few of us, just a few, see what’s going on. We just sit, we don’t try and bail or patch, we don’t decorate or save garbage, we don’t try and party too much (just when sitting a little too long gets boring maybe). Mostly we just sit and smile at all the crazy shit people are doing all around us, it’s pretty funny if you can step out of all the sinking panic and just look, and when our boats do finally sink… those like me won’t rage or cry, we’re not attached to anything, not even the boat…. we’ll just be relieved.
To me that’s what it means to be an absurdist… you know that everything is pointless, and you know there’s no more reason to off yourself than there is to keep breathing, but your sorta driven to keep afloat, so you do, (maybe even just as a middle finger to the bubbles and/or the boat builder,) but without all the useless and overly dramatic attachments or frustrations everyone else seems to drag around with them.
I really don’t care that some self satisfied assholes see me as a failure, or other judgmental assholes think I’ve wasted my life, those are just more really stupid people who have bought into the illusion that anything at all matters when your on a sinking ship that you can’t stop from sinking. I’ll always have a much MUCH bigger smile on my face while sitting and watching those people sink…
So stop with the self-hatred, depression, and anxiety… Just sit, look, smile, be… you don’t need to do anything else, and nothing else you might do will make any difference anyway.
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This is a cool analogy, and it hits home because I’m a sailor. Everything you said is pretty accurate in the context you’ve presented it. But that context seems to be with all boats in port (or in society), where you are surrounded and bombarded by every other jerk and the sight of his or her boat.
In real life I always dreaded being at port, in close proximity to others, and always craved the unparalleled freedom of being far from any other human, separated from them not by a cruel consuming sea but by a thick, insulating blanket of water. It’s the best feeling, knowing you can see anyone coming 20 miles away, and you can simply exist. I guess that’s what you’re saying in the end, that we should simply exist.
But I think if we can truly get away from society (that is, those elements of society that disgust us), then we can exist without the depressing nihilistic thoughts. We can exist in the epicurean sense of drinking in what life has to offer. Then it doesn’t matter what your boat looks like, although it’s smart to keep it in good shape so you can go further.
As the saying goes: “all I ask is a tall ship and a star to steer her by”
This comment in no way is implying that life is grand. I still believe life is full of horrors. But if you get away from humans you realize that life can be pretty great some days. A few years ago an old Russian sailor showed up in Australia or something. He had been at sea for so many years that his passport was from the USSR. The guy rounded up a bunch of supplies, unhitched his boat and he was off. Now that’s living.
i feel you on that salt. Every time i start to get some peace and think ive found a happy place i can reside in i am suddenly bombarded by the presence, thoughts and opinions of other humans and i am cast back into discontentment.
Actually i was just saying something to this tune earlier today that if a person is living a simple basic life and just taking things in within a large society like the u.s. or china whatever they are considered a loser and made to feel depressed worthless etc. but if you were just a man in a tribe of 50 in the jungle you’d be living the same simple life taking everything in and you would live and die perfectly fine with it.
people raise each other up and bring each other down. and the society we live in today is so rife with vanity and financial pursuits and pride and egoism. I wish i could just tune out pick 2 people i like and live on an island and never see a mass of human flesh again.
Id probably hit the party boat on the weekends.