They are growing more and more distant.
I’m as alone as I used to be, but I feel more alone now. Having had close friends has made it hard for me to be alone now.
I also drove my family away from me with a large freak out. I skipped a thing with them recently, I don’t want to be around them.
I should kill myself. I deserve it, people would be happier. I just worry that my cat won’t be okay.
I was so very close to being happy.
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I skipped a lot of things with family not the end of the world, you can make new friends I HAVE, don’t need to worry about your cat long as you stick around. Sorry it’s difficult but you can make it.
I don’t think I can make new friends, and I don’t see the point.
We were close, and suddenly just due to one decision they leave. They still pretend to be my friend too, while ignoring me most of the time.
It’s been a few months now. I won’t be able to keep friends.
Just because you skipped something doesn’t mean everyone is upset or mad at you. They assume whatever they will assume about why you “skipped”, and you can always just say something like “I wasn’t feeling well and just needed some time alone”, orrrr whatever you feel like saying about it, orrrr nothing at all.
Anxiety always causes me to hold back from people, and then after I feel awkward about it. Usually it’s only me that feels awkward, when the other party could care less… yet I still obsess and worry I may have upset them or pushed them away.
I guess I’m just saying, a lot of your bad feels are probably because you’re hating on yourself for it all
I can relate.
You aren’t what you tell yourself you are though. You are much more, and I’m sure plenty of people care about you.
Well it was like a proper fight, then my family tried to see me right after and tried spending more time with me after. They are going to treat me differently now, which I do not like. I don’t think I’m ever going to see them again. I’ll just keep skipping things until they learn to not invite me.
I also did tell them I was sick yes.
I’m being honest here it’s happened to me, I think the feeling of rejection is what bothers you, remember you are not the one with the problem. just say to yourself oh well. There is nothing I can say to fix things only how to deal with them, don’t allow it to bother you friends like that aren’t worth having, now if your cat starts ignoring you then I would start to worry.
They were the only person I’ve ever felt like cared about me though…. They were a good friend, it is just upsetting seeing how quickly that changed. I have not had other friends that were that close, I have just had a bunch of people who would call themselves friends and just bother me when they needed help with something, or see me maybe once or twice per year.
It’s not funny but it happens, the truth is I know very few people that remain that close forever, like moving kind of, you start over unless they come back around and that can happen too! It hasn’t been that long since you first told me about this, treat them regularly show them your not shallow, and they may change. You can only do so much, and really it hasn’t been that long. don’t panic.
2 months is far too long to spend alone. 🙁
Sorry you got us and a cat! it’s getting worse all the time! Be patient!
🙁