Why can’t I feel better?

Honestly I really feel bad, sometimes when I’m in that situation the best thing is to do nothing, if money is tight even those cheap TV dinners will work I’ve eaten a million of them. Try to just relax and take a break from thinking. Why not? give yourself a break.

Thanks, she’s 72 the dog was really old had cancer, everyday that dog and her were together, It was sad she was crying I was hugging her. Not fun.

I jumped at the opportunity, she is a very kind person, she laughs a lot and always kids me, then she was in front of my house crying she looked lost, I knew something was wrong, I knew the dog was sick , and was glad to be there for her, I’d rather repair her roof or something.

Yep!
Off the subject, I like talking with you, you are a very good person.
You know shatterediris, It is hard to explain, I was really miserable, ready to cash in, you know yourself that feeling, everything was so bad I didn’t see a way out, bought all the equipment I still have it, I won’t get rid of it, it’s sits just in case, I was at my wits end, I hated working because of the people it was awful, I hated my relationship it was awful, I was under so much stress and in such a dark place it’s a miracle I didn’t do it, I was determined, I’m not kidding, I was doing practice runs to make sure I made no mistakes, A few thing’s happened that changed my mind, I could write a book, but this is what happened in my case, I was 8 years from retirement, I knew I could collect in 8 years, I planned everything! The plans changed over and over getting better and better, but I struggled for those 8 years, it didn’t get better it got worse! I really had to fight, all alone, I’d slap two pieces of bread together with a piece of baloney, that’s it for lunch, I was miserable! It was hard to continue, working towards the goal, I really suffered, never thought I could make it but kept trying, It was horrible! So weak everyday was a nightmare, I made it! WITH NO HELP. So yeah That’s why I have a positive attitude, I went from hell to a life that’s bearable, I feel so much better, So remember I can’t help but being positive, I sometimes feel guilty talking to others because i’m out of that dark place I was in, and I only can say I pulled it off, if I can do it another can do it. Life isn’t perfect trust me, but go through what I did you can’t help but be positive. I want everyone to make it. Now what’s tomorrow going to bring? What disaster is going to take me down? I know it’s coming it comes for everyone, but at least I can try to enjoy what I fought so hard for. So forgive me I just want the same for you.