I know. It’s like awkward for me because I’ve been trying to commit suicide for 15 years, but like just recently (within the last 6 years) sh*t got retarded – so ultimately I’ve been delaying the inevitable but like what if I have stalkers that follow me around to report me when I go to kill myself? That has happened to me a few times. I ultimately have no f*cking clue who the f*ck followed me. I’ve never spent a moment with another person so I don’t know why anyone would do that to me. I think I just have creepy f*cks following me. But I don’t want them when I kill myself think I committed because they stalked me and r*ped me and molested me when I was a kid, even though I don’t think these people have thought a day in their life or would even think about me after I commit. (I’d hope they wouldn’t think about me at all. But it seems they do, enough to follow me and r*pe me.)
Nonetheless, it’s not dramatic for me at all because I’ve been planning it for 15 years. I have a horrible life so it’s the best decision I can make. I especially have been abused a lot since 2013, but I had planned to die for good in 2012. I mostly wish I would have just died in 2012 how I had planned since a 10 year old baby girl.
I’ve honestly been raped 170 times since 2016. I’ve been a homosexual since 1998. I don’t know why I am getting followed and raped or even why.
I’m so sorry to hear that, I hope you find somewhere where you can be safer/are able to report the people following you. I can’t imagine how that must feel.
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I know. It’s like awkward for me because I’ve been trying to commit suicide for 15 years, but like just recently (within the last 6 years) sh*t got retarded – so ultimately I’ve been delaying the inevitable but like what if I have stalkers that follow me around to report me when I go to kill myself? That has happened to me a few times. I ultimately have no f*cking clue who the f*ck followed me. I’ve never spent a moment with another person so I don’t know why anyone would do that to me. I think I just have creepy f*cks following me. But I don’t want them when I kill myself think I committed because they stalked me and r*ped me and molested me when I was a kid, even though I don’t think these people have thought a day in their life or would even think about me after I commit. (I’d hope they wouldn’t think about me at all. But it seems they do, enough to follow me and r*pe me.)
Nonetheless, it’s not dramatic for me at all because I’ve been planning it for 15 years. I have a horrible life so it’s the best decision I can make. I especially have been abused a lot since 2013, but I had planned to die for good in 2012. I mostly wish I would have just died in 2012 how I had planned since a 10 year old baby girl.
I’ve honestly been raped 170 times since 2016. I’ve been a homosexual since 1998. I don’t know why I am getting followed and raped or even why.
I’m so sorry to hear that, I hope you find somewhere where you can be safer/are able to report the people following you. I can’t imagine how that must feel.