lifes at a wierd stage right now for me. i think its getting pretty bad if i hate the word life. makes me think of how long and horrible mine would be, last night i tried again. but every fucking time i do all that pops in my head is my nephews and neice and my mother and how it would affect her and one time i tried and i thought it was too late then passed out for 3 days and woke up thinking you silly girl wtf is wrong with you how could you put that stress and pain on your family, so therefore hated myself more and more… still do but my medication dosage was put up and i geuss ill just hang on for a bit more amd see if this shit works
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Is there something in specific that makes you want to die?
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theres alot of things, hard to say in one comment, and thankyou
I don’t have a family and I never have, I do have people that I am held hostage with, but I don’t love them or even know them.. so I have no reason that I shouldn’t kill myself. But unfortunately I don’t really know how to kill myself or I’d already be dead. I have nothing to stay alive for. Yes, long and miserable life. I haven’t had one good day or even one day that was worth living ….
that sounds horrible, i do have that family although its a long story very complicated but most of them hate me and think this is all for show when really every second of the day i debate if i do it or not. and your reason that you shouldnt killyourself is that one day in the future your going to have a family of your own and you can show them real love, not what you got.